I battle feelings you would not believe
I'll never tell you cause I don't want to feel like I owe you an apology
I see how you spend your day and time
I guess I just wish you spent more of it finding a way to die
No, no, I'm sorry, I don't mean that
I'm a firm believer guns and k**ing are weak raps
It's just; I'd really like what irritates me to be minimal
And when you start talking I get tempted to be getting rid of you
I delve deep inside of the unseen realm
And wash up on familiar shores of sand and seashells
It's just the same story I retell
Brought to you by some daddy issues and a young female
Started back before I got my diploma
It all began at 13, felt like I was a no one
Still think I was in love, I'm what she disposed of
And intimidated by dormant feelings that I know are in a coma
I never felt good being me
But I could hide it, so I was even deceiving me
The first three months would happen so peacefully
And then, nothing but pleading on my knees that she would leave
Don't put me on a leash; Don't put me on a leash
Don't care if your name is Caroline or Annalise
Or whether your car is paid for or on a lease
Soon as you put a collar on me, I'm a beast
And I promise you won't like it, so don't put me on a leash
We all know how it feels
When you begin to sense it all go downhill
I didn't have enough game to make it a competition
It's like I only could get with women living with something missing
And I couldn't provide the replacement
I didn't know my limitations
Trying to offer something that I didn't have
And somehow convincing myself that it would last (Uh huh)
I guess I'm a s**er for love (Nuh uh)
But only for a couple of months (Uh huh)
I've only succumbed to suffering once
So far from reality I forgot what recovering was
I only get the urge to push females
When they get bright-eyed and bushy tailed
I get to wondering if you all could see everything
That I've ever done in your opinion would you think I should see jail
You should have learned not to make your view of someone elevated
Or soon the faith you have in mankind will be desecrated
I just know someday you'll be looking down on my name
Cause the world doesn't see your imperfections and the faults that you've made
A lesson you may never learn, but it serves you right
The purchase price didn't include my personal life
Expectations, you'll experience regrets somehow
I'd be doing you harm if I never let you down
Don't put me on a leash; Don't put me on a leash
Don't care if your name is Caroline or Annalise
Or whether your car is paid for or on a lease
Soon as you put a collar on me, I'm a beast
And I promise you won't like it, so don't put me on a leash