[Intro]
I've been going through a lot of decisions in life
They are usually hard for me because I am pretty hesitant
And I am under so much stress when I know I gotta finally decide
Before it will be too late
[Verse 1]
Don't know which one is right
What if I'll pick wrong, question torturing my mind
I cannot accept, I cannot deny
Cannot do nothing when I know I ain't have much time
It's hard to describe what I feel inside
When I gotta choose to lose something from one kind
To earn something from another, sacrifice what is mine
And it's always haunting me and I don't know how to decide
Being persecuted by thinking 'bout possible loss
Ain't no more undisputed when not knowing the possible cost
Always sayin' "pick whatever" but when I be standin' on cross-roads
I be thinkin' forever, that's what I be hatin' the most
How does it even create and is it my fate and why am I so damn obssessed?
Tormenting thoughts circulatin' and my mind is fadin' because of being always stressed
And it is not even Satan, it's all what I've made and I'm shocked that I've done all this mess
And I must take over my mind or else someday I will put myself into eternal rest
[Chorus]
Never could do it straight
Never could decide, could only complicate
But at least I know I gotta get out from that state
Before it will be too late
On the track I can accelerate
But does it even matter when my mind suffocate
It's time to cut the noose and vanquish my self-hate
Before it will be too late
[Verse 2]
Cannot strictly prove
Where I want to move
I really disapprove
All my doubts but I know I can't remove
What I will do and that makes it tough
For me to choose, think 'bout it even rough
I was never good in this selection stuff
And...damn, I really have enough
I'm sick of being forced to hurry in every case
Why I have to do this? I don't wanna be in that chase
Because nobody gonna win this whole race
When the darkness will start to embrace
You can say I don't look like I need that much space
Do you think you've ever seen the real me lookin' at my face
Again I am thinkin' that I'm close to suffer from disgrace
And I think I really gotta for some time leave this place
Who wanna replace me?
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
Thinkin' a while about being a rapper and why would I wanna be back on the track
Thinkin' a while about being a chopper and why would I wanna just deck and then wreck
All the beats that I found awesome, I'm throwin' these syllables in a split second attack
Spit 'em all outta my mouth and I bring it to you by my flow like a MAC and I check
Checkin' the microphone through this whole album makin' my mind bit close to break or to crack
When I be writin' these songs and I always wanna do my best and just wreck, not be whack
I love to do weird things wit' the words so if you will see me hijack and then drag
Sentences from my brain vocabulary then you will know that I will hack 'em and stack
When I be keepin' up that verbal stream and when I'm preparin' the next to arrive
I will tell you all I'm chasin' my dream but as always there must be people who strive
To bring me down sayin' there won't be cream from this, that I rap too fast...I cut that strife
And I keep goin' to reach that lightbeam to get out from darkness where I used to dive
Not lettin' humiliate me by no one but myself, tell me why I've
Been thinkin' about things not up-to-date and why even then I am fully alive
Must decide before it will be too late to save for me much more time of my life
At least I have pa**ion for music, cause it lets me survive
[Chorus x2]