[Verse 1: Abz]
Went on a trip in my mind for tripping all of the time
Peace and Clarity what I was trying to find
But got damn
The conclusions that I reached
I thought my soul was already as heavy as could be
At my peek and my finest I can't them
The people that stay honest and stay modest
I see the good in everybody till they cross me
Man I'm a m**m I don't play that sh**
I never asked for none of this to happen
I was only rapping
Questions answered with more questions ignoring all that I was asking
And piled up all the bullsh** I was never having
For what?
All that pa**ion yu packing could probably lead a nation
All the guidance you lacking could probably keep you waiting
It's 2 sides to the spectrum man don't get it twisted
It's nothing new that if you do you'll probably get offended
Gave my all for consumption
Never got a callback
And no feedback
And no nothing at all
If I depended on the numbers just to keep going
I wouldn't be recording
What for if it ain't rewarding?
Man Look what the game turned us to
Substance abuse
And backstabbing
An image to prove
With gimmicks for fuel
And Smack Chatting
From pitiful dudes
Cause I can't see how
They're claiming they love me
And hate to see me shine if their level ain't on mine
It gets so ugly that it's just funny sometimes
No lie
But what do you see?
What the f** do you really see?
Writing scriptures only I could read silly me
Never gave a f** about what you want so I can breathe
Telling me who I should be after missing out on scenes
Getting kicked out and struggling to eat
For months and months where the f** were any of yall?
Or walking to the studio at like 5 in the morning?
No picking when they keep calling
And calling and calling
Just to land my paps in a hospital bed for a heart attack I've caused
Brought nothing to the world but faults
I've lost everything and really gained nothing at all
Gave yall kosher but was nowhere closer