[Verse 1]
Sure, you were hoping I'de drop all the moping
Don't worry, it won't be, this way through the whole thing
Was a point where I only felt lonely
But now I'm proud to announce that's that old me
Rarely honest, was way too withholding
Would always alter his tone and his clothing
Kinda felt like a bonafide phony
Fear of the judgment was far too controlling
Not very vocal, a bit anti-social
Never getting too close, distance of a stones throw
For the record he was never quite a leper
But he'd tremor at the thought of making errors, never hopeful
Never really clever with the small talk
Not conventional, handsome and tall dark
Didn't want to seem pompous and all smart
Come off cheesy like nacho scented hallmark
He was eager for deeper connections
But clearly never attempting the get them
But he promised that he was done spittin' nevers
Which he found was the crux of his life gettin' better
[Bridge]
(Found my zen when i picked up the pen
And life's yet to seem as sh**ty again)
[Verse 2]
Feels like I found a solid recipe
That cleared up the field for this upward trajectory
Cause cerebellum is flowing with activity
Every days a lesson and growing with my self-esteem
To fulfill these dreams, man I'm feeling great
Even at the times while my trials tribulate
I see now pessimism is an easy bait
To make a self fulfilling prophecy to seal your fate
Filled with hate from the Ricky Bobby complex
This “If you ain't first, you're last” concept
But I've learned to appreciate the progress
And no It's not settling, it's also not a contest
Thats why I'm getting more honest in my sentiments
And now these good vibrations are prevalent
I'm perplexed the pace I'm developin'
And won't stop now cause I'm feeling hella excellent
It takes a lot now rustle up my temperaments
And to the cynics who sound a bit incredulous
And think this membership relatively tentative
Well its too bad cause I'm feeling hella excellent