[Verse 1]
I've been doomed since the beginning
So caught up in losing, don't know what it's like to win it
Guess you can call it addiction, cuz I keep writing
To women who never listen, with no intent of quitting
Just spitting the emotion out and craving your attention
Feeling my soul slowing down, each time your name is mentioned
So much tension ever since that side of you went missing
But I'm trying to learn my lesson, so I try to keep it hidden
Gotta keep it "bossa nova," looking for "new trends" and
Tangible distractions that can keep my mind suspended
These days, the only way of escaping the apprehension
Is to pick a poison, make a choice among the vast selection
Toxic love that's always just a bit less than expected
But there's nothing to sweat when your biggest fear is rejection
I got it covered, 'til I move onto the next sin
I'll keep my secrets hidden and my mysteries protected
[Hook]
Better hold onto your vices
Before the kids see and realize what life is
We're not supposed to live like this
But, I gives a f** cuz this sh** is priceless
[Verse 2]
Surprise, I find my best ideas when I'm faded; I hate it
I couldn't write it down before it all disintegrated
Went back and read it later, but it came out jaded
Then contra created color with a method I anticipated
Inhale, exhale, focus, explore
When it all dissolves, perceive the things you couldn't see before
If only I could hold it, take it home to be stored
Properly; Freezed around approximately 0 degrees
Dreams behind the scenes; I need to buy a camera
To keep the moments I don't yet have an entire understanding of
The feeling you get: can't see, but you can sense
The weight of the significance within the shutter of a lens
It's all about experiencing things without regret
To an extent, it's your life. Try having fun before it ends
The world lies within your head, no need to play pretend
Allow the possibility, let your imagination bend
[Hook]