I close my eyes for a minute
and reminisce.
Just a small girl once
energetic and carefree.
Nothing to bring me down
to sadden my heart.
In all of my memories
You stand.
Like a hero to my everyday
shielding me from the world
that I thought someday I'd conquer.
Years have pa**ed
as they often do
Right from my eyes
as if I just blinked and it was a century later.
Such a grown woman now
feel so old in this young body.
Still afraid of what I'll become
scared to d**h of what I already am.
My mind plays tricks on me
and torments all of my actions
my fears.
But just before it controls me
before it's too late to return,
There you are.
like the light in my darkest dreams.
You comfort me in your arms
and show me what it means to be relaxed.
I just want to put my tiny hand in yours,
or sit near the fire on a warm April night.
take walks by the creek,
and catch crayfish and snakes.
But I can't.
I am a grown woman now, with my own dues to pay.
Responsibility hangs at my hips,
and there's no way of going back.
I see in my children's eyes
what you've probably once seen in mine.
Life, happiness, comfort
I ask myself how.
how do I make the memories you've given me?
how do I give the joy that overcomes a Childs life?
All I can do is learn.
Learn,
As I put my grown up hand in yours,
and kiss your older cheek.
Learn from those two hour talks in the morning
and how you still make me laugh.
Learn from all those years I've given you grief,
put you through nothing but torment, and did everything you said not to.
Learn from you standing by my side
looking at me through forgiving eyes.
Telling me that no matter what,
I'll still be your little girl.
I ask myself now.
Will my daughter/son look at me as my eyes look at my father?
Will it all be the same when my hairs turned grey and my body old.
Will they ever see me as I see you...
My truest friend,
My hero