Lord...
Said all I got is my pain
Come watch me drown in my sorrows
I'm petrified of today
And I pray I don't wake tomorrow
Cuz all I got is my pain
Come watch me drown in my sorrows
I'm petrified of today
And I pray I don't wake tomorrow
And I just hope the lord forgive me for my sins
Cuz I'm back to medicating all my issues once again
Once again
All I got is my pain
Come watch me drown in my sorrows
I'm petrified of today
And I pray that I don't wake tomorrow
I blow your mind with these rhymes
I paint a picture with words
My inspiration is agony
Tell me that ain't absurd
Try to break it with the flow, make a mothaf**a feel it
n***a either way you cut it, could you really tell the difference?
I would never try to be somebody they consider phony or fake
Go take another n***a's stuff then recreate it
No fabrication
Or exaggeration
My imagination
Been infatuated
With the other side
But my maturation
Wasn't comfortable
I left lacerations
On both wrists, on my sleeve stain
When that blood drip, I wasn't fascinated
With the facts of life
But I was terrified of my isolation
Man lately
I've been feeling down and out so proceed with caution
Cuz a n***a like me got used to losses
I've been living in a world that's imaginary
And I wonder is the realism necessary
Just had a premonition of a cemetery
And a grave plot with my name on it
I'ma treat it like a motherf**in reservation
But the way that I've been living
It's the confirmation
Played the game and lost;
No consolation
Let a young n***a preach to the congregation
I'ma tell the truth on my pure pew
It might take a minute
Done a lot of sinnin
Never had a friendship, I was contemplating
Suicidal thoughts up on the f**ing daily
And it manifested into my depression
Netted to my problems as an adolescent
Goddamn!
Gimme a second to set the scene
So to finally understand what the f** I really mean
In a world full of hate you disagree with my dream
Realize they could never run and send me demanding about an ounce of respect
To attest to the fact that I'm finally coming into my own
With a moment to atone
Tell em all that I murdered a microphone
With a story that was talking
To the minuscule minds of the ma**es, wasn't even ready for the ba**
Or the motherf**ing master
The young lyrical phenom
The master got a beating, I suffocated, I breathe on
I'm looking for a god damn reason
But I'm barely alive
I comprise the bereavement
And when a n***a in it I spit it with cohesion
The medicated mind of a mothaf**en heathen
It's down to the grind and nobody believes in
I wonder if I'll ever lose faith in the process
Don't, motherf**er try and focus on the progress
A low self esteem can easily impede on the mind of a person that's working to proceed
Elevated to a level that no one has ever seen
And my mind ain't right I can never stay sober
Negative attitude when I feel like it's all over
I came in the world with a question, but I was never given the courtesy of an answer
Resent I was left with, a soul full of hate, you could see it in my eyes
All I wanted was the love that I was so proud of, that was pushed to the side
With any type of compa**ion you wouldn't give a f** if a n***a wasn't rapping
You're young and you're black
Deceived with a distraction
We're all slaves on the inside
Even though you want to think that you're free
Please never believe it
Done
Yeah, Uh-huh
All I got is my pain
Come watch me drown in my sorrows
I'm petrified of today
I pray I don't wake tomorrow
Yeah, Uh-huh, Look, Yeah
And I just hope the lord forgive me for my sins
Back to medicating every single issue once again
n***a
All I got is my pain
Watch me drown in my sorrows
Petrified of today
I pray I don't wake tomorrow
Lord...