[Chorus:]
I am not myself today
I have lost all reasons to pray
Get up reach for the stars, that are high in the sky
Before I start feeling high
[Verse 1: Kaden Butler]
Wishing I could escape
Thinking that I may never have 'nother birthday
The small sense of hope is taking shape
I felt lost but now I think I'm saved
And there's a higher power
With me at the hour
When I think I'm down
Bein f**in pushed around
But forced myself to get up
Have power to make your face go numb
And your the bully but I'm the grown up
Cause remember your memory
My life is pleasantry
You who's being hurtful, never me
I was five, only just five
And guess what, I never lied
Desperately I grasp life
Squeezing hate out of this knife
Stop, f** it, I tried!
[Chorus: Sara Castagno]
I am not myself today
I have lost all reasons to pray
Get up reach for the stars, that are high in the sky
Before I start feeling high
[Verse 2: Kaden Butler]
The other day I was talkin to one of my buds
He told me to get the f** from the mud
My ankles were locked, but I fought forcefully
There's no possible way, f** this absurdity
A sharp pain inside, there is eternity
Seeing my family is the number one priority
People often ask me, why you decide to do rap?
Wow, tough question, let me get back on that
Why you think I can't succeed, because I'm white?
Stop persuading me to think that I'm to polite
Golden beams keepin me in the fight
The sensational aroma when I lay down at night
And in the morning the sun beams light
I look all my haters directly into the eye and say
"I show no sympathy, the symbols are symbolic and
I take no interruption, the corruption is destruction
Your f**ing a**umptions, will cause convulsions."
And I wake up and scratch my foot
Get out of bed, feeling tired and exhausted
I may never be clean, but I feel f**ing awesome
[Chorus: Sara Castagno]
I am not myself today
I have lost all reasons to pray
Get up reach for the stars, that are high in the sky
Before I start feeling high