Everyone around me is telling me to not look back
They say I'm acting like I'm under some imaginary attack
But how could they know where my mind will go
It's not ‘cause we're friends I want to visit it all again
I need to feel it once more so I can break it up and smash it down
I have to rise above the nightmare and leave it where it can't be found
And if I can't move on I'll be stuck inside my private hell
It's always banging on my door, it's always waiting there to ring my bell
Mark my boundaries making sure I check the locks
I'm trying to play the part of me that you like even when I'm not
‘Cause how could you know where my mind will go
It's not ‘cause we're friends I want to visit it all again
I need to feel it once more so I can break it up and smash it down
I have to rise above the nightmare and leave it where it can't be found
And if I can't move on I'll be stuck inside my private hell
It's always banging on my door, it's always waiting there to ring my bell
It has hold over me it's my history calling
And I can't get away from the fear that I'm falling down
I watch myself trying to fight and let go
But it's here in my spirit like a vulture I know
I understand that there's nowhere to hide
It's just me and my demons trying to stay alive
Stay alive
I need to feel it once more so I can break it up and smash it down
I have to rise above the nightmare and leave it where it can't be found
And if I can't move on I'll be stuck inside my private hell
It's always banging on my door, it's always waiting there to ring my bell
I need to feel it once more so I can break it up and smash it down
I have to rise above the nightmare and leave it where it can't be found
And if I can't move on I'll be stuck inside my private hell
It's always banging on my door, it's always waiting there to ring my bell