just uploaded music to bandcamp.com
then linked it on twitter, tumblr, blogger, and facebook
while listening to a song by defiance, ohio on repeat
in bed
alone
waiting for the comments, likes, and reblogs
to start rollin' in to slowly alleviate my steadily declining self-esteem
self-confidence
self
a friend who moved to south korea messages me on gmail chat
i list the d** i'm on
she tells me that she's worried
she tells me that i need to slow down sometimes
i thank her and apologize
i am plagued by the problems i've created for myself
worse every second i'm alive
always trying, rarely doing
waiting for the comments, likes, and reblogs
for anything, really