I'm always stuck in a rut
No longer interested in living with myself in this world of bullsh**
Every day, every night
(Every day, every night)
All because I'm so lost and I'm unable to change
But; to this day I try
Swallow my spit
Swallow lie after lie
Eventually I'll put an end to myself
Because I want to f**ing die
(Because I want to f**ing die)
I say I'm fine but I'm pulling my teeth out
To taste my f**ing blood as it endlessly bleeds out
I let it bleed so I can taste what is real
It's not a good habit but it's just the way that I feel
I can't help myself
The walls are closing in
And I want out
I want out now
I want out now
I should've listened when they said I was wrong
I should've but I didn't cause my hopes kept me strong
It's a f**ed up way from the top to the bottom
And I'm barely coming down cause I refuse to be lied to
I refuse to be lied to
It's all a Paradox
And I'm slowly closing in to my end
Swallow my spit
Swallowing lie after lie
Day after day
I'm patiently waiting to die
Swallowing my spit
Swallowing lie after lie
Day after day
I'm patiently waiting to die
I EXIST UNTIL MY DEATHWISH IS GRANTED
(I exist)
THIS IS MY DEATHWISH