I used to pray beside my bed
Like in a story book I knelt
My heart was open wide
Hopeful and terrified
But slowly all those feelings died
When all my little whispers
They vanished into nothing
Like reaching in your belly
And coming out with stuffing
I’m looking to the heavens
And screaming, “come and get me,”
I could have been an angel
Oh, if they’d only let me
It’s like I personally stole from God
Don’t you think it’s mighty odd
How every time I try for grace
It blows up in my ugly face?
Personal magician man
Guess I just don’t fit the plan
All despite my every plea
They closed the pearly gates on me
I went to worship in my teens
I was the youngest in the whole
I sat through hours of self-served praise
Laugh-out love
But still no signals from above
So, I wandered all around then
I visit holy places
But all of them were hollow
Not even any traces
My heart began to harden
Yeah, hope is just a memory
For thinking true believer
I won’t admit to envy
Yeah, f** the things you know
I f**ing told you so
It’s a really evil a rumor
And I lost my sense of humor
Is everything a loss?
Yeah, this is all you got
To take on yourself
There ain’t nobody else
It’s like I personally stole from God
Don’t you think it’s mighty odd
How every time I try for grace
It blows up in my ugly face?
Personal magician man
Guess I just don’t fit the plan
All despite my every plea
Slammed those pearly gates…
This time it’s personal
Bodies in the river
History in my hand
I read the ancient books
And I don’t understand
Don’t want to deliver
And churches become sand
I’m far from entering into the promised land
Yeah, this time it’s personal
It’s like I personally stole from God
Don’t you think it’s mighty odd
How every time I try for grace
It blows up in my ugly face?
Personal magician man
Guess I just don’t fit the plan
All despite my every plea
They close the pearly gates on me
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Feel those fingers digging in
Shocking numbers
Keeping rhythm
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