[Verse 1]
I woke up disappointed that I woke up at all
On the hospital bed, the needle draws from my arm
My mind's receding, tumor in my heart growing
Like a bad Christian metaphor
[Chorus 1]
No laces in the ward, no blades or drawstring
The light shines through the window, checks that I'm still breathing
I guess I don't want to die but I want to feel alive again
And I know that this ain't living, I hear twenty reapers calling
[Verse 2]
Love's not infatuation, it left me a mess on the floor
Though we make it, you still change behind the curtain
Outside these walls the pressure's mounting, my mother weeps through the phone
In the shadow of Lion Rock, bruised students refuse to go home
[Chorus 2]
I hear twenty reapers calling, oh they know me by name
Angels falling in the courtyard, delight in tracing my veins
Broke her leg on the subway, staggered her sorry way back home
Escitalopram your sweet revenge, bottles of trazadone
[Verse 3]
Lost your faith in a Christian school, where you lost your virginity too
Androgynous Superman; I only want to yours
Fear's your only love language, pepper spray, and the leaves of Fall
My only sacred memories of you aren't so sacred at all
[Chorus 1]
No laces in the ward, no blades, or drawstring
The light shines through the window, checks that I'm still breathing
I guess I don't wanna die, but I want to feel alive again
And I know that this ain't living, I hear twenty reapers singing