Got so much stress
Let me get this off my chest
[Verse 1]
How many pills do I have to take to overdose
Put me into comatose
Go and meet the Holy Ghost
And then my oldest folks
What if I go broke
And lose hope
Get clouded by the smoke
And I choke
I thought my future was with the words I spoke
But here I am I gun I tote
At my head you could look thru scope
Should I go
I don't know
I just flow
I hear voices in my head
They talk to me they understand
Turn me to a better man
They call that sh** my conscious
How the hell I stop it
Doing right things the wrong way
Went from a good night to a long day
On this planet earth wondering if I should stay
Do I rap or get rich the hood way
[Verse 2]
I told my self not to trip
Especially about a b**h
It went from I love you to why do you exist
Ain't that some sh**
I want rapping but your also on my list
I never got much for Christmas
Raps my only gift
Would they look down when my spirit lifts
Rapped saved my life it changed it all
I used to look at the mirror on the wall
I'm only 5'4 you expect me to stand tall
Waiting for gods damn call
Last time we talked I wanted shoes at the mall
So would I be rejected
Would I never get his message
Maybe he is there we just have a bad connection
Or maybe I'm dreaming and it's all an inception
My mind is my weapon
See I never been baptized
To me everything the preacher is speaking is damn lies
Was he there when my sister cried
Or my grandmother died
Or did he act surprised
I'm just waiting for you to look me in my eyes
Or would I go blind
See I don't know much about the bible I didn't read
I barely got past the first chapter of Adam and Eve
Cause what I look like reading something I don't believe
Or maybe I just don't know what I mean
The only bible verse I know is Austin 3:16
But that ain't real but neither is you
Let's play 100 question ask what I been through
Would you already knew
As tell me things that you gonna do
But I'll wait till that happens
But I ain't gon wait for this rapping
[Bridge]
As I lay me down to sleep
I pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake
I pray the lord my flows to take
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[Verse 3]
Man you should've listened
I told you were gifted
When you were there trippin'
And nothing was different
It was all for a reason
You should have believed in
But now you're forever sleeping
Talking to them demons
I see it all cause I live up above
Now looking back I didn't show you my love
I ain't think you would need it
When I gave you the book I expected you to read it
You beat me this time I have to take the loss
Look what it cost
I was fighting with the devil & then you were tossed
I'll Tell your parents sorry for their lost
As the beat shuts off
Is this what I'm seeking
A piece of my mind instead of my mind blown in pieces