[Sample]
Would you like to have some dinner with me the next, you know, few days or so? Did you get my flowers in the-
Okay okay, can I call you again, okay, I'm gonna-
Yeah sure, so long
[Verse 1]
Another semester ends, like the messages ‘read' - all the girls that told me that we be ‘better off as friends'
Two ice addicts calling me a ‘chink' on the train, everybody else just looked away with nothing to say
I swallow regret whole like sleeping pills, waiting for karma like Santa wait Santa isn't real
Their twitching corpses impaled on rotating skewers, dissolving in a bathtub of concentrated sulfuric
Sizzling like dropping a Berocca tablet in boiling water, boiling over, their flesh bubble orange: the only closure
It's the only closure like the Polaroid's over-exposure after I gazed at the light from the supernova
Like the memories when I think of you shifting blue, you said you were different to, but you're just like the others: cold and distant too
Loneliness has followed me my whole life, no escaping, dating for 20 years, time to take her home to meet the parents
Start to wonder what I'm even working for, running to the sh**-eating smirks between the closing doors
Suicidal thoughts on platform 3 when all is said and done and dive in front of a train that's supposed to never come
12 hours to forget I've been swiping right with no luck, do it over and over get my own hopes up
Self-deluding, not as a masochistic optimist but a compromise made by my self-preserving unconsciousness
[Verse 2]
Another semester ends, here we go again, fading tail-lights of happiness through a telescopic lens
Camouflaging the pain am I callused or is it pretend?
She's just being polite don't let her fool you that she cares
My trust has been impaired, they waiting to jump me in the fetal position on the concrete stomping on my head
Get up but keep hitting ‘til it turned my knuckles red, so much blood from the bodies can taste the metal in the air
But there is nothing you can do to me that can even compare to the throbbing ache of regret I walk around with on my chest every single minute
I'm starting to get dependent, falling for every girl who'd give me the slightest attention
Intestines slowly wrenches just like the twisted pain accelerating the same rate that she be disappearing
Entertaining thoughts of what it could've been, thinking she won't leave you like the others did is bloody ludicrous
Sadistic women all they do, make you put scissors on your tongue cut the whole way through, Oh Dae Su
혼자, 혼자 always say too much, played your cards, she act like she gave a f** then she breaks your heart
Oh Jesus Christ when will I ever learn?
Never ever be the one that catches feelings first
Funny being called ‘thirsty' by my mates as she pours jugs of water on the damp cloth laid across my face
[Verse 3]
Another semester ends, maybe it's for the best, all my friends in their cap and gown graduated and left
Sipping instant coffee at 3am but what's the point?
When they say I need an 80 WAM just to not be unemployed
They can't empathize the pain Travis, stumble through each day like it's a moving train carriage, walls bleeding with rain damage
October 24 repeats; a VHS loop
Hope you will think of me again when the jacarandas bloom
[Sample]
Betsy: Why do you have to volunteer with me?
Travis: Because I think you are the most beautiful woman I've ever seen
...
Betsy: Why?
Travis: I think you're a lonely person. I drive by this place a lot and I see you here. I see a lot of people around you. And I see all these phones and all this stuff on your desk. It means nothing... you're not a happy person. And I think you need something. And if you want to call it a friend, you can call it a friend
Betsy: Are you gonna be my friend?
Travis: Yeah