Heartbeat racing in like speed addiction
Frantic, pacing now without restriction
Walls come crashing down
I'm too weak to run
Smother me in perspiration
Strong overload of dry regurgitation
Smacked on the back without the choking fit
That should've come first, should've come first
This empire's dying anyone
Can you wait to see the sin on his face?
And he knows it's not a joke when he hears the last words
His son ever spoke
Why can't I be alone
To fight these things and hurt myself?
Why can't I be a victim
If a victim's how I've felt?
Free to look proud on those
I drag down with me
Free to disbelieve
I'm b**hing, no one listens, witnessing desecration
I'm b**hing, no one listens, witnessing resurrection
I'm b**hing, no one listens, fighting this addiction's k**ing me
I'm unforgiven
It's at times like this that I wish that I could die
It's at times like this that I wish that I could die
It's at times like this I wish I could die
Not worth it, just not worth it
Who will help me be myself?
No one even talks to me
This blossom
Save it before it's too late or it won't save itself
Free to want nothing more than what I lost of me
Free to disbelieve in everything
Why can't I be alone
To fight these things and hurt myself?
Why can't I be a victim
If a victim's how I've felt?
Free to look proud on those
I drag down with me
Free to disbelieve
I won't know the pain I've caused until it stops
I won't know the pain I've caused until it finally stops hurting me
'Til it stops hurting me...
Why can't I be alone
To fight these things and hurt myself?
Why can't I be a victim?
A f**ed-up victim
Stop hurting me
Stop hurting me
I can't stop hurting me
Mother please forgive this
Father please forgive this
God forgive this
I die