[Verse 1]
I've never had no luck, was unhappy through my whole life
Looking back when I was living in that small house, that old house
Thin walls, the voices coming through them were so loud
Oh God, I can't even describe it, it was so hard
My cold heart has gone far, I think I'll never find it
And my mind is f**ed up, I'm unable to unwind it
A lot of sh** happened, trying not to think about it
But it might be, there's something behind this whole chagrin
So, I'm rhyming, reminiscing when I was a little kid
That mouse was always under my bed, I couldn't get rid of it
Just a naive stupid boy, I was always afraid of everything
And that's why every single motherf**er would belittle me
I am sick of it, and I must admit that I hate myself
Just hate this life, please, Lord, I need some help
I feel much pain, gimme some strength cause I don't have none
I'm falling like those raindrops into my old bedroom
[Hook]
Cold blood is running through my veins
I'm praying that God will ease my pain
They say life's a game, but I can't play
Cause I can't see no sun, after the rain
(2X)
[Verse 2]
I'm taking it back at the time I was sharing a bed
With my brother, every morning I was waking up sad
Staring at the mold on the walls, or the muck on the floor
I would close all the doors, and get stuck in my home
Spend the day talking to God, and reading some books
I was trying to find some peace, but I still wasn't good
I just wish that I could, deal with some of my problems
Maybe, I wouldn't be sitting here, talking to my conscience
Trying to write some sh**, and tell a part of my life story
Now I have a three story house, but still my life's boring
Still noone's calling, no new friends and I'm alone
I think the way I've grown is the reason that I'm gone
The way that I've been treated makes me wanna k** some people
No more broken windows, but my life's still in pieces
Never succeeded, cause I never had what I needed
I don't have to fight no more, cause I'm already defeated
[Hook]
Cold blood is running through my veins
I'm praying that God will ease my pain
They say life's a game, but I can't play
Cause I can't see no sun, after the rain
(2X)