I've lost all strength
To get out of bed
These thought in my head
Make me wish i was dead
I'm still dreaming of red
Its my blood i want to shed
Taking my life cause I'm fed
Up with this path which I tread
After all thats said
I won't go out of my room
To consumed by doom
Dark thoughts always loom
With happy thoughts of my tomb
These dark thoughts come easily
Deep thoughts keep Teasing me
_ How can I live happily
When Constantly I'll forever be
Trapped in my pain
Everyday the same
Everyday Im lame
Cause I Can't walk again
Even down the lane
Lost joy, its a shame
Its mark on my brain
Just like its a stain
So scared i tread lightly
No fight left in me
Then the night takes me
Whenever I think deeply
But thinking with no logic
Caught up in politics
How can I, deal with this
When nothing i think is positive
So then my head drops
These feelings just won't stop
A skycraper i stand on top
Just thinking what I've not got
I am sick but i have no cough
Cause everything I think of
Is enough to make me jump off
And fall
Get those thoughts out of your head
No good to the world if your dead
Be strong like a thoroughbred
The people who love you are widespread
Some words are better left unsaid
If these feelings start to embed
There just being misread instead
Thats the reason your misled
You can't seriously wish you were dead
God these though leave me with dread
This isnt a bad life you've led
Just wait until these feeling shread
I mean… 20 years old, story untold
Fill the hole and let it unfold
Behold the gold from words your told
Can't let your soul roam uncontrolled
Got inner strength man your not weak
Not rich yet but far from the street
The futures may seem to be bleak
Maybe it will change by next week
So its time to make a new start
To be the best you have the heart
Grab a brush and make your mark
With the talent you possess in art
Don't give life the middle finger
Just cause you feel like an inbetweener
Your on a different level no one can reach ya
Yea your the sh** like a cleaveland steamer
Keep climbing to the top and don't you ever stop
A failure is something that you're not
You won't flop, drop or be a prop
Just hop dot to dot till you hit top spot
Even if you've had enough
And sleeping rough has made life tough
No bluff, its f**ed up like watching snuff
And your sick of s*ut backing up with there bu*ts
Grind to hard to have time for grinding
These are mature feelings you're finding
Thats why your feel like your childminding
So its time to rhyme real feelings unwinding
f** the drug addicts f**ing up your sleep patterns
Dark rings under yours eyes like you've been battered
Then that time last summer it actually happened
Emasculating be that easily flatterend
These first world problems you've already told them
So rap for the loners who need someone to hold them
Don't rap about money, these songs we've never sold them
Just spit some hot sh** to other rappers and scold them
So stop that depressed sh**, press d and hold shift
Time to delete it because its so f**ing sh**
And now with every lyric you spit
Is a step to the top even if sometimes you slip
No elegance like elephants
But evidence your relevance
To get into your element
If you need some embellishment
But people don't listen to the things you tell them
Just scream it at them till they get f**ing tinnitus