[Spoken]
This is the autobiography of Nicki Maraj
[Hook]
May the lord protect me, as the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected
[Verse 1]
Daddy was a crack fiend, two in -
The morning, had us running down the block, like a track team
When you burnt the house down and my mother was in it
How could I forget it? The pain is -
Infinite, she's my Queen, and I ain't even British
She is the only reason, that I went to school and I finished
She told me that I had talent, got on her knees
And prayed for me, when I started being violent
She saw something in me that, 'til this day -
I don't know if I could be that
But I'mma die tryin', and when I'm done cryin' -
Grab the iron and black out, like I'm retiring
Nightmares of you, k**ing my mother
The reason that I sleep, with my head under the covers
And they should've thrown a book at you -
Cause I hate you so much, that it burn when, I look at you
[Hook x2]
[Verse 2]
Damn, I wanna run to you -
Hold you and kiss you, and tell you how I miss you -
Thought I would have a son for you, but now?
It's official, it's over and I can't let you go
But I gotta let you know, all the sh** I did
Made me feel like, I'm dyin real slow
Cause no one understands me, they don't know -
What to do when I'm hurt, when I'm angry
You was my friend, and my man and my daddy
You was there, when that b**h tried to stab me
Anything I ever needed, knew you had me
Cause of you, all them chicks couldn't stand me
So why I hurt you? That's the question
It took this long, for me to learn my lesson
Cause now all I want is peace, forget drama
I finally understand, the true meaning of karma
[Hook x2]
[Verse 3]
Please baby forgive me, mommy -
Was young,mommy was too busy, tryna have fun
Now I don't pat myself on the back, for sending -
You back, cause God knows, I was better than that
To conceive you, then leave you, the concept -
Alone seems evil, I'm trapped in my conscience
I adhered to the nonsense, listened -
To people who told me, I wasn't ready for you
But how the...(f**) would they know, what I was ready to do?
And of course, it wasn't your fault
It's like, I feel it in the air, I hear you sayin' -
"Mommy don't cry, can't you see I'm right here?"
I gotta let you know, what you mean to me
When I'm sleeping, I see you in my dreams with me
Wish I could touch your little face, or just hold your -
Little hand, if it's part of God's plan, maybe, we can meet again
[Hook x2]