[Verse 1]
I start to run, it's all in my head
Cause I cannot remember which of us is dead
I found the gun you hid behind your back
But I wish that I could find it while your body was intact
I try again, it's always the same
You catch your neck in the noose that I hang
And in the end I run to the start
Just to find that without a taste of tragedy we'd only fall apart
[Chorus]
If I was a castle
Then you were the last stone
Keeping the ground beneath my feet
Keeping the ground beneath me
If I can be honest
You made me a promise
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
Pretending to smile
[Verse 2]
And now I see your ghost every day
I'm not complaining, it makes everything okay
But how did we end up where we are
I'm a lonely hopeless dreamer
You're a blue-eyed shooting star
I wish for time to pour into you
To figure out if there was something I could do
Brother of mine, we were doomed from the start
But if you need a place to hide away
I swear to god you'll always have my heart
[Chorus]
If I was a castle
Then you were the last stone
Keeping the ground beneath my feet
Keeping the ground beneath me
If I can be honest
You made me a promise
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
Pretending to smile
[Bridge]
I want to be somebody else
I want to see you when I'm looking at myself
I tried to belong, tried be strong
Tried to write a beautiful song
But I always get it wrong
It's like I'm destined to fight for my sanity
And wage war with the person that I planned to be
Because the only one who ever understanded me
Probably felt like this too
Connor, I miss you
[Chorus]
If I was a castle
Then you were the last stone
Keeping the ground beneath my feet
Keeping the ground beneath me
If I can be honest
You made me a promise
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
I guess in the end you couldn't keep
Pretending to smile
Keep pretending to smile