In my head
I wish d**h
I am feeling like I am a person so everybody hates me
Because I am a piece of sh**
And I am sick
Of people that repeat that I am an idiot
Well I am a human so
I cry and I try
I lie and I smile
I love
And I solve
Many problems that many others can't
I do my best
But I know that I am not better than the rest
And teachers puts all on me
If anything bad
Happens in cla**
But now
I am back
With my rap
I am the broken boy
Who will not stop rapping
I hide my tears behind a fake smile
That is always on my face
The story of my life hurts me
And what is future ?
Is it a stupid thing that means my destruction?
Well in the future
I may do suicide
I hate myself like no one else does
Friends or foes don't trust anyone they will all betray you one day
But I don't care about my stupid life anymore
You can shoot me in the head and k** me
I am already dead
Dead mentally
But I wish that in two days I will also be dead physicly
My heart that is broken
Is aching me right now
I don't have a question
But I have got questions
Why I can't be liked?
Why I can"t be loved?
Why everybody judge me like I am a bad person?
Why they are wishing I die?
Please give me the answers
Everybody like to see me cry
So I am not afraid of crying if the answers hurt me
If I cry
I am sure
You will smile
And will try
To hide it
And then you will come and tell me
"stop crying"
And then I will tell you
"stop lying you are smiling You don't care about me If I die you will go and dance on my tomb can you prove me wrong"
As I write this song
Tell me that you hate me
Look in my ugly face
In my ugly eyes
I will care
But I will hide my tears
And when I will go back home
I will cry
As I sit on my bed
Wishing that my red blood get out of my body
Because if this happens
I will die
So everybody
Will be happy
You know what?
f** every b**h on this earth
f** the f**ers
f** the s**ers
f** this earth
f** the planets
f** everything that is alive
Of course there is some exeptions
But there is too many b**hes alive
And if this is what they want
If this is what every b**h on this earth wants
I have no problem of being k**ed
No one likes me
I cannot lie to myself cause if I could
I would
Have do it A long time ago
I hate myself because I am a stupid boy
That have been hated too many times
My heart was broken
Life is a b**h
Who does nothing but hurts me
They judge even thought they have never felt what I have felt
They can all sue me but they are the cause of me
I took a minute
To think about my life
And I have cried
My life hurted me so much
That if I think about it at night I can no longer sleep
My heart is broken
I am a victim of a k**er named life
I am the prey of a thing named suicide
If I find a gun
What I will need is one bullet
I will put the f**ing gun in my head,co*k it
Die and go to hell
I am suffering
The hardest feeling is when you feel like you are not from this earth
I feel this way
Because I have been rejected by everybody
I have lost my mind
And I have sell my soul
And now I can no longer get them back
What I want is to escape from this f**ing earth
In my mind there is suicidal thoughts
You want to judge me
Judge me
But just know that you don't know what the f** I have been throught
You bully me for fun
I wish I die
Not only because of that
But because no one likes me
Everybody hates me
I am tired of being who I am
I am tired of haters
I am tired of being hurt
I am tired of myself
I am tired of living
I am tired of life
Because I am broke
And I am a f**ing joke
When I will die
They will say that I was a good person for them
But this is nothing but a lie
Nothing is right for me
Because I can't find the light
You can no more say to me
That you like me
And if I can die right now
I won't say no
Because it is the best thing that can happen
This is my friends wish
This is my wish
This is a world wish
I am asking myself right now
What is the poison? And what is the cure?
I don't know but what I know is that I am:
"hated,bullied,rejected,betrayed,damned,mentally k**ed,mentally sick,hurt,broke...."
I have nothing to be proud of
And certainly not love
And come to think about it
If life is the poison so suicide is the cure
And I am sure of that