you named a playlist
“rudolph bultmann”
for times when you feel a combination
of happiness and extreme confusion.
in your room
listening to Lana Del Rey sing
“dark and lonely i need somebody to hold me”
i start to feel light-headed.
i go into the kitchen
for hummus and celery.
it is because
it's Tuesday
and often on Tuesdays
i feel like
a goth teenager
standing outside of a high school
vaping in a rainstorm.