[Intro]
Graft
Home Grown Media TV
Large up all my real n***as behind the cam
Shoutout KB
Some real sh** for them
Pain from the heart innit
Listen
[Verse]
Stress up on my mind every minute
Like swine flu I wish that I could done it, catch it, bin it, k** it
But there's no sleep for the stressed
There ain't time for no rest I'm just tryna do my best
But it's really got me held back
Lookin' in the mirror, you don't know yourself my dog
You ever felt that
That ain't even half of my story
Stress so consistent my body feels poorly
Look, and for my mum please tell her that I love her
So much anger I can't even show it
I just pray that she know it
All this sh** got me feeling so heartless
Devil on my brain therefore I've got half left
Damn
And in my room I just pray to the Lord, he don't answer when I call
My life's disfigured like pieces
I gotta find Jesus
I'm on a deeper journey than Dora
Used to have my glow, now I've lost my own aura
Cos this stress brings dark in a minute
Please tell me if you feel it, nah wait
You can't relate
So F off or please listen carefully
I can tell you about old kids that were scared of me
But I'm starting with the pain like narstie
I've never had it rough, I'm young I've lived cla**y
Not once will lie about the pain
I'll never tell lies just to try and earn fame
I'll always keep it when I'm rhyming
I'll never turn fake I can never shuck night him
All this stress got me feelin' so parrow
And at night my mind takes off like a sparrow
All this sh** dog, it's far from shallow
I feel it in my chest to the bone and the marrow
Up in the battle with the creatures in the mist
My old life I do miss, I don't know how do I do this
I'm trying to focus but it's hard to
And if you walked in my shoes my old path woulda scarred you
Plus I'm a big black n***a like Lukaku
6'1 to be exact but this stress make me smaller
Wishing it's no mental disorder
The devil won't leave me alone like a stalker
Each day I feel weaker, drainage of energy
Fighting a battle I ain't meant to be
You ever felt so lost that you feel like your mind's gone
The peak is the misery, so much negativity
My mind's gone so differently
Most love for myself, man I've lost that
More time I feel lonely
I express through my bars so she know me
sh**
How I miss the old me
I feel trapped like a slave
I don't even dance when I rave
Blame it on the rage
Built up aggression, fire in his eyes like Satan
True say Jesus made him
What's life that's the question
And at night that's my one single question
Graft