[Produced by Noah "40" Shebib and Hagler/Co-Produced by Jake One]
[Verse 1]
Somewhere between psychotic and iconic
Somewhere between I want it and I got it
Somewhere between I'm sober and I'm lifted
Somewhere between a mistress and commitment
But I stay down, girl I always stay down, get down, never lay down
Promise to break everybody off before I break down
Everyone just wait now, so much on my plate now
People I believed in they don't even show they face now
What they got to say now? Nothin' they can say now
Nothin' really changed but still they look at me a way now
What more can I say now? What more can I say now?
You might feel like nothin' was the same
[Hook 2x]
I still been drinkin' on the low, mobbin' on the low
f**in' on the low, smokin' on the low
I still been plottin' on the low, schemin' on the low
The furthest thing from perfect like everyone I know
[Verse 2]
And I hate that you don't think I belong to ya
Just too busy runnin' sh** to run home to ya
You know that paper my pa**ion
Bittersweet celebrations, I know I can't change what happened
I can't help it, I can't help it, I was young and I was selfish
I made every woman feel like she was mine and no one else's
And now you hate me, stop pretendin', stop that frontin', I can't take it
Girl don't treat me like a stranger, girl you know I seen you naked
Girl you know that I remember, don't be a pretender
Gettin' high at the condo, that's when it all comes together
You know I stay reminiscing and make-up s** is tradition
But you been missin' girl and you might feel like nothin' was the same
Hook
[Bridge]
Drinkin', smokin', f**in', plottin'
Schemin', plottin', schemin', gettin' money
Drinkin', f**in', smokin', plottin'
Schemin', plottin', schemin', gettin' money
[Verse 3]
This the life for me
My momma told me this was right for me
I got 'em worried, like make sure you save a slice for me
I should have Spoons serve you up with a fork and knife for me
Your actions make us doubt you
Your lack of effort got me rappin' different
This the sh** I wanna go out to
Play this sh** at my funeral if they catch me slippin'
Naked women swimmin', that's just how I'm livin'
Donate a million to some children, that's just how I'm feelin'
A n***a fillin' up arenas, who the f** could see us?
I had to Derrick Rose the knee up before I got the re-up
Yours truly, the boy
I just build and build more, y'all n***as build to destroy
Y'all n***as party too much, man, I just chill and record
No filler, you feel it now if you ain't feel it before
[Outro]
Yes, Lord, this the sh** I wanna go out to
Yeah, this the sh** I wanna go out to