[Verse 1: Genesis Renji]
Somewhere between homicidal and suicidal
Razor in my hand
They say don't jump
With ya eyes closed
You won't see everything that you pa**
They say we living too fast
But really
We just dying slow
Too close to the edge
f** it
I'll take off
I pray this noose around my neck soon break off
I pray these shackles 'round my leg soon shake off
I quit these jobs
So I can never be laid off
I sold my soul to myself
My debts are paid off
Built a House from a pyramid
b**h, I'm Maddoff
I'm making sure I can make off
With all this cash I made off
Rap sales of past tales of a young black male
It's unfortunate
All these portions I'm posed to get
Prolly go back to the government on some bogus sh**
On some
"We taxing you for what you owning sh**
And we gon write it up acting like you still owe us" sh**
I understand it
My perception uncanny
I see the good and the evil
I peeped the angels and demons
I appreciate the purpose of the spirits that's working
Wrote a thesis bout being deceased
And now I'm more than certain that I'm
Gon' be pa**ing by my own hand
Cuz I
Wasn't born in my own land but I'm
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[Hook: Genesis Renji]
Pray for peace of mind
For the times I
Spent all of my time in the limelight
Pray these Angels watching all my blindsides
I don't ever wanna be sidelined
No
No way that I won't (won't)
Won't make it to where I'm going
I'm going, I'm going
[Verse 2: Genesis Renji]
They keep you fearing God
Just to keep you from hearing God
Here's the tricky part
Is there even really a God?
I mean
I know there is
These are questions from older kids
I'm just the boldest kid
Who f**ed around and wrote the sh**
I only wrote the sh** cuz I f**ed around and noticed it
I only noticed it
Cuz I'm naturally the nosiest
I got a need for knowing sh**
And then when I know the sh**
I got a need for showing it
And then owning it
This God complex
Is found in my rhyme sets
They told me pray to they God
I told them I'm set
Keep yo opinions to yoself
My religion was believing
That I could be something else
Arm
Leg
Leg
Arm
Head
Know what that be
Life number seven
Immortality's around me
7 streams
7 breathes
And 7 generations
Gotta live a life worthy of those who survived plantations
Shoutout to Dolo, Anika
Shoutout to Darius
Hope this existence I'm living ain't too embarra**ing
Life can be perilous
Doesn't mean I don't cherish it
The ego's necessary
Help me work on arrogance
Pride comes before fall
I feel like I been floating
In between the mountain tops and all the low lands
And if I never rise
Bury me in a river of gold then
Gla** casket with a rose tint
I'm open
I'm
[Hook: Genesis Renji]
Pray for peace of mind
For the times I
Spent all of my time in the limelight
Pray these Angels watching all my blindsides
I don't ever wanna be sidelined
No
No way that I won't (won't)
Won't make it to where I'm going
I'm going, I'm going