[Laughing]
Stutter boy
Stutter boy
Stutter boy
[Verse 1: Shiquon]
Everybody told me that I'm living in a dream
Rapping is a fantasy just think of other things
That could help me be successful either lawyer or mechanic
Man I've had it leave me be and let me do the things I please
I don't really need your doubts it's unnecessary and you're very
Hypercritical I really wish that you could see
Everything that I envision cause my vision is much bigger
Than the places that I've been to and the one I'm settled in
Why make me change for a life that I don't fit in
Music is my life and ain't no use for me pretending
That ima be so happy doing stuff that's minimum my maximum
Is waging even higher than the house you live in
And tell me bout change is money or the fact that you can probably
Go help a person make a better living
Man you don't even know all you care about is money
So go chill and take a nap because you selfish so forget it
[Hook: Shiquon]
I feel strange
Why am I thinking this way
Why am I thinking these things
Maybe cause I can't
Keep everything in my n***a
Something's really gonna have to change
Man I can't lie
My feelings are beginning to change
I can't keep living life this way
I don't know what to think
But back when I was younger I use to fantasize and dream about me having blood in the sink
[Bridge: Shiquon]
I don't know anymore
Should I leave or live life some more
I'm thinking suicide cause nothing feels right no more
I need help please help me lord
I can't lie I don't like to rhyme no more
Should I give it up or write some more
Don't know what to think I don't wanna cry no more
That's why I got blood in the sink
[Verse 2: Shiquon]
A lot of n***as come to me and ask me for a favor
But back when I was coming up they acting like a hater
Telling me I'm ok alright you ain't that dope try again
Then s**ing up to me later
Naw n***a I quit eff that nobody really care
Cause back when I was on my own nobody wasn't there
Nobody but my brother cousins mother close friend I ain't lying
If you feel some type of way get outta here
I speak nothing but the truth and all you n***as care about
Is when the police k** another black man
Y'all some gah damn hypocrites it's black on black crime everyday
How is this any different why you mad
And since you say I wouldn't make it telling y'all the truth
I'm putting down the mic keeping my a** up out the booth
And let you n***as tarnish everything within this planet
Cause I've had it I don't want it anymore so y'all can have it
[Hook]
[Bridge]
[Gun shot]
[Verse 3: Shiquon]
It wasn't really the gun that k**ed me
It was the fear of not surviving and it's weird the
Only thing upon my mind was my life
And how I'm about to ruin with this gah damn nine
I was letting everything just get to me
I worried way too much bout what they thought of me
I had a lot hate towards my enemies
And allowed my freaking past to keep on haunting me
I'm still breathing but I see my body
Murdered myself I've just committed a suihomi
With a weapon that's not registered so when they find me
I'll be drowning underneath it like I'm trapped in a tsunami
I didn't feel a thing I just heard a bang
It was just a pinch luckily nothing hang
I still regret it but I can't change a thing
It'll be a miracle if I'm granted another chance man
[Hook 2: Shiquon]
I felt strange
Why was I thinking that way
Why was I thinking those things
Man now I can't
Take anything back my n***a
Now I really cannot change a thing
Within my life
I've already done a stupid thing
I took a freaking bullet to the brain
Now look what I became
Just another black child fallen victim to the crowd without speaking out loud with blood in the sink