I've been gettin' real reckless
Worried I won't have enough time to check everything off of my checklist
And I'm kinda scared that nobody sees me as any sorta worthwhile emotional investment
Can't really blame em, I know that I'm a handful
I make more problems for myself than I ever planned to
So turn around before I see you and gather up the courage that I need to come and meet you, I'm see through
But nothin's set in stone, a friend once told me, “Let it come to you or let it go
Don't let em know that you're dying to tell em all your secrets
Just tell em that you're fine and just hope that they believe it.”
So I've been playin' my part
But everybody's doing their best to take a piece of my heart
And take the last shot at the person that I used to be
So here's to everybody that disapproves of me
Here come the drums, everybody's beating their rhythm hoping that you will come undone
Undone
Sick of dwellin' on my mistakes, so it's live it, love it, and leave it
Do it the way you wanna cause you'll never get to repeat it
I've spent so long feelin' so lost and defeated
Now I've got a chance to change it, I've just gotta believe it
I've got a hard time seein' the truth behind the compliments
I guess nothin' will ever improve my self confidence
My broken heart just holds myself and other hostages
Until it's filled up on letdowns and broken promises
But hey! I do my best to smile
I can't tell if it's workin' cause I haven't tried in a while
I'm so sick of constantly bein' reviled
By people who don't feel what I'm sayin' cause it's not in style
I put my heart on the line, in between the words when they're written
So you can listen or not, I guess that's your decision
I'm lookin' for the good in me that's hidden
Underneath the damaged positivity that's wrapped in ribbons
Here come the drums, everybody's beating their rhythm hoping that you will come undone
Undone
I don't think of much of myself, but I think highly enough
To know that I'm a better person than the person I was
And everybody that refuses to acknowledge it
Automatically a**umes the role of an apologist
Apologies not needed, make your peace and just beat it
Heard it a million times before and I don't need it repeated
I know that you're “so sorry” first time that you cheated
Play it off like you haven't lived your whole damn life conceited
I believe it. Knock your little trophy to the ground
Cause I don't see the point in sticking around
The newly crowned king of everything that's been forgotten
That's been beat up and abused, mistreated and downtrodden
Cut my losses, wrote some raps about my life
And figured I don't need some friends that got more faces than a pair of dice
So when it seems like I'm not doing my best to keep in touch
Just remember everything that coulda been us
Here come the drums, everybody's beating their rhythm hoping that you will come undone
I'm done