V1
I'm ready to go to war with myself, I got a ak-47 with a suppressor for stealth
Silently k**in myself, these lies will put me to hell
Because deceit is a sin and the people who need the help
Are only digging to 6-feet, I call that the quick cheat
The only way out is to battle what makes you weak
I let these people walk in me and see my secret strategy
So they take advantage, prayin since they got a vantage point
Maybe the lord will save me. But another plan escapes me
I don't need it but I want it, I don't see it but I own it
Hoping when they attack, I'll take advantage of what I'm holding
But If I squeeze it I become it, IF I run it I won't live through it
It's often through conflicts like this that make a coward wanna quit
Even through nights like this, Even at times like this
We're always quick to judge, what if the shoe was on the opposite foot
Would you release your grudge?
Hook
See these dark days, You let em stay on replay
You wondering what may keep you away from your sacred place
And I'm hoping one day, I can push the fear away
So one day I'll warn myself from my own mistake
But the past is the past, I'll look back and hope that
It doesn't happen again
But I can promise myself that it won't happen again
Dear friend, in the end, it's not when, if you are heaven sent
Verse 2
So I'm getting off the bus, it ulls off second shot, third shot
Realizing that I'm soft enough for the bullets to penetrate me
It's too late I see him aiming at me, Inside me. 1 bullet 2 bullet 3
Another two behind me sweep me off my feet
I look into his eyes, and he watches his defeat
HE drops the slugger he ducks for cover, I'm pullin out the caps like
They was some motha f**in splinters
1 bullet, 2 bullet 3. The other two behind me are stuck in there pretty deep
They hit the spine that I thought I never had
My left leg is twitching while I'm screamin for my dad
I couldn't let my momma see me this bad. I'm hurtin, bleedin and I'm crying
My uncle looks at me and tells me to stop whining
But my skin grew over call it a horror thinking that I'm disfigured by I'm alive
Those two are significant so I stand up, Ignore the pain embraces the gain
Runnin thru the pouring rain to survive. Above and beyond all the lies
Is what I need to get outside the inside that hoping that I will die
To his surprise, I'm standing tall lookin dead in his eyes saying
How does it feel to fail the only task you were given?
God's grace is getting stronger by the minute don't you feel it?
That's me winnin, standing tall against aggression
Opposition clears my vision, Clearly driven now I'm living
Hook
V3
Detaching in fact I'm branching my tree of life
This hostile lifestyle has gotten me all up in they sights
I'm compound fracturing making sure manufacturing slowly comes to a halt
So I can storm this pl ace and revolt
But these archfiends hulk up so they can stop & back me up into a wall
With weapons to paralyze me hoping it'll stall
The success that I worked for. I'm on the floor, I look up but who do I call on for?
Do you know how it feels to see someone you love change into someone they're not?
Do you know the pressure on your heart that holds you to your bottom spot?
And you think it stops, but really it's just a forgotten thought
The memories you had as they progress into a growing stop
The tears will drop as they unravel themselves before you
Like a catapillar breaking its caccoon, flying away into the bloom
It's too soon everything that I experienced within this
But this nightmare turned tragedy will teach me how to live through this
Through all of this it formed mental scars, tattooed on my skin
Burning as it's etched in, it's there forever, So I'm reminded to live for the better
I look back on it just a small meaningful image
To remind me that my life is and always will be worth living
It'll free me from being, possibly seeing everything
It's only a test to be vexed is to be blessed
So count up the soul hidden underneath your breast