[Intro]
Just know the guy who's writing this is not myself
I tried to pry the f**in pride from me, it didn't help
Just know the guy who's writing this is not myself
I tried to cry and feel some pain but it didn't help
Explain to me why every day faithfully
Recreates the one that i saw yesterday, it seems
Im stuck in a time loop that i can't leave
Sit staring out lookin at the branched trees
Keepin this secret that im afraid'll get out
That i ain't been doing school, im afraid to get out
My mom explaining to me that leavin will f**in crush me
But crushing is all that school does for me, its nothing
Listen to my situation
Im sick of sittin here, dreaming, thinkin and complaining
That i ain't got a friend and no b**h on my dick
But then i leave the house and feel my chest cavin in
So imagine the most embarra**ed you've felt
The put that in perspective as a constant in your hell
That's what school does for me, and lovingly they come to see
Im held the f** back for being a f**in dummy
[Hook]
And they never really saw it from my side
I dont think that they tried
Im not illiterate, im writing this sh** here
But i count up change and remember a sh** year
Of sittin in the cla** trying to figure out the sh**
But never really ever getting out of it
So, consider this a permanent holiday
Cause i can't f**in find a friend and i can't even read a page
At this point, i dont think that it bugs me
Im envied by these kids who think its cool to a dumb freak
I can't even pinpoint what's so jarring
Have you ever sat down and made sure you're not retarded?
I sure as f** have, the principal, that dumb a**
Put me with some b**h with f**in braces like she'll help pa**
She can't cure a crippling sickness
So f** it, im livin simple, no friends and no b**hes
I just stay inside and ignore the fact that im alive
Praying the (?) will never knock or even hear this vibe