[Verse 1]
Now I only smile on Fridays
The lights turned off
The fan is on for comfort
But I lie awake (lie awake)
Her next to me is lovely
She was nice enough to f** me
Before we went to bed
And now my body's feeling warm and comfy
My mind is on some "What the f** is going on?" (Going on)
I'm 25 without a basis yet to grow on
No foundation
Feel like a newborn on the ground naked
Tears flowing
Mouth open like screaming but no sound making
And do I sound crazy?
Probably not because we all feel the same
We all feel that pain
We all drink and smoke and f** too much
To numb the chase of money
Bunch of f**ing dummies
We all heal the same
But god damn it we all wake up like
"Today will be the day I change"
Knowing motherf**ing well tomorrow it will be the same
I feel like this is all I write about
Depression is perpetual
I feel my life and write it down
Feeling trapped in my head
So I wake up on some late night sh**
Feeling trapped in my bed
Trying to quit smoking with those Blus
But my friend he left a pack of Reds
Walked past the E-Cig and grabbed the pack instead
I grabbed the lighter off the coffee table
Somebody left the TV on
So I turned off the cable
Something about that late night feeling
Had me feeling lost, unstable
Put on my Vans
Grab my hat
To cover my dumb-a** hair
Then I walked down those stairs and
Out the door and to the porch of my complex
Thinking I'm poor
But I'm complex
I lit my cigarette
I'm feeling alone
I'm feeling happy about forgetting my phone
Some days I'm on this sh** like it's real life
Some days I forget my humanity
What it feels like
And down the street I see this drunk a**
I'm thinking, "please walk past, man
Don't even ask" (even ask)
'Hey man can I bum a smoke?'
So, I gave that bum a smoke
And then he asked me for my lighter
For my fire
Now this is where I get inspired because
He said, 'I'm sorry
All I brought was my habit'
Profound words of an addict
Because all I came to this Earth with
Was a habit and no purpose (x2)
But I'm going to die with a smile on my face
Either looking back
Or looking forward
Let's hope that it's the former