[Intro: Elusive]
Yeah..
Usually, my music is about me..
And the way I see things..
But for this next song..
I'm gonna be telling your story..
From your point of view..
Let's see how close I am..
Uh..
[Verse 1: Elusive]
If I was full of love, would you love me?
All I wanted was, someone to hug me
I couldn't see the beauty, looking in the mirror
All I hear is all the other kids telling me I'm dumb and ugly
I'm not worthy, cause every time I ever fell for someone else
It seems like it was just to hurt me
I got what I deserved, and I can only blame myself for
Putting trust in people, when they all desert me
But my life might be a short ride
So I've gotta be strong, and let the doubt hide
Life's an outfit, that I ain't fitting in
Cause the only time, I belong is when I'm on the outside
And now I wake up to a bad dream
See, when I found myself - I lost my self-esteem
I'm depressed, but I guess you must be deaf
You don't even seem to hear a single thing, when I try and scream..
[Hook: Faith Williams]
I wanted to love you..
But you wouldn't love me, for me..
All that leaves..
Is to say farewell..
I didn't want to say goodbye to you..
But you didn't give me a chance, to be true..
To myself..
All that's left, is farewell..
[Verse 2: Elusive]
Afraid of love, but I seek connection
Looking at myself, I see an imperfection
What if it's misdirection? I got nowhere left to go
So I pushed away the people tryna show affection
The wrong one's I put trust in
Life pa**es by, but I guess I'm still adjusting
At the start I couldn't deal, I was crushed
But if my heart is made of steel, why do I feel like it's rusting
If I'm worthless, why should I be proud?
Screaming loud, cause I can only do what I'm allowed
I never had a handout, so I hold my hand out
Hoping it might help me stand out, from the crowd
Cause people treat me like I'm made of gla**
About to break, and you don't see me when I'm walking past
Just let my voice be heard, is that too much to ask?
I didn't want the drama, so here I hide behind a mask..
[Hook]
[Bridge: Elusive / Faith Williams]
All I really wanted, was someone I could hold..
So I don't feel alone, when night falls and it's cold..
Look into my soul, and tell me what you see..
I tried to open up, but I am only me..
[Verse 3: Elusive]
In my mind, it's like a whirlwind
I'd been hurt so many times, I could near end
My life, but then I met a rapper who would open my eyes
And it was nice, but of course, he just lost a girlfriend
Together, it was only comfort we found
If you ever needed me, I would always be round
But I had it all backwards, cause the truth is
To you, I felt more like, I was just another rebound
And still you never wanted s**
I guess at least I had that in common, with your ex
Then I saw my life cave in, and though I needed saving
I don't need your superhero complex
Reading back messages you once sent
And still now, I am not sure, what it all meant
Like how could I rely on somebody
Who just keeps threatening to leave me at any moment..
[Hook]
[Outro: Elusive]
Yeah..
So I guess that's it..
You know I never meant to hurt you though..
I just wanted you to know, that I understand..
Cause to me, you really are amazing..
And I just felt, your side of the story had to be told..
Before I'm gone..