I awake screaming
Im losing my mind
At the mirror like
Who is this guy?
This life sh**
I ain't doing right
I see a bible
And I move it aside
f** that
Its not truth it is lies
God is grace is
As foolish as I am
You're gonna tell me
Getting bruised in my eyes
Is Gods will and I should be
Choosing his side
Most kids are
Cruising on by
f**ing around
Amusing their lives
Well Im getting
Abused every night
Teachers knew it
So they accused all my lies
They told me to fight
So I hit back
Cause the more that I cried
The more Id get smacked
The more Id get smacked
The more my lips cracked
The more my lips cracked
The more my friends laughed
So f** it
Id think about the edge
Id think about the times
That he'd drown my head
Im screaming under water
AHH how is this?
You're the one whose supposed
To crown my head
Im scared
For when he'd should again
And Gods just another guy
To let me down again
But somewhere in the midst
I found the gift
That said " Son there is love that you're surrounded in"
"Your struggles will help ya
Lift the people
You're stronger since you
Once lived in evil
Spread your message and
You'll live in peace" so
I wait to rap on
Pins and needles
I awake screaming
Im losing my mind
I see all these guys who've
Ruined their lives
My friends
All these humans are dying
Writing this record
Is proving Im trying
I write for you
I write for Hip Hop
Live my life twice
To sit in this spot
The story is true
I got my sh** knocked
Its all love though Dad's
Consider it squashed