[INTRO]
Looking back, is this who I imagined I'd be at 25?
Alone, nobody by my side
Contemplating the past moments of my life
Wondering what was said, the regrets
What I did, was it wrong was it right?
sh** I don't know but
[VERSE 1]
I must've been like five
First time girls thought I was fly
I knew I was a pimp back then
Didn't even need no ride
My confidence sky high
The world it was mine
So what's changed that me's a stranger
Now I look through the lens that love's a bunch of parallels
And they all lead to failure
My parents tried to sew it back together but they ain't no tailors
They split see ya later like sailors
My inner state a**ociates love with hate and danger
This the remainder
I can blame ya but I won't
You both loved me so I'd grow
This rose blooms even though it's all doom and gloom
I don't need no sun, to know my seeds grow best while they're under the moon
[INTERLUDE]
I remember like in first grade I really liked this girl
It was Valentine's Day and I made her like a construction paper heart shaped valentine
She was the only girl I gave a Valentine to
I didn't know any of the like traditions that you're supposed to just hand them out to everyone and Valentine's Day wasn't really a professing of your love to someone specific
I guess the memo I missed it
Anyway, f** it, Samantha if you're listening
[VERSE 2]
Sammy was my first crush
Now I thirst for this new b**h Grammy
She won't give it up that easy, she tease me
I feel like she can't stand me
I'm searching for the perfect gift
sh** does it exist maybe add a guitar riff
My cousin told me (let her go)
Easier said than done when you've got none to hold on to you know
That's my problem, striving for perfection in a world where true beauty's reflected in one's ability to detect the undetected
My imperfections are what set me apart from the rest of us
Still learning this lesson
And if I snap on you in tension
It was never my intention I'm merely trying to gain attention
I'm destined, a milli I'm so invested
My knowledge, I've k**ed so many with that weapon I should've been detained and arrested
I can't be contained my heart's in it
Cardiac arrested I'm never resting
I'm so restless I'm wrestling with these thoughts gotta pin em and lock em inside this box
Throw away the key forget about all this fake sh** called reality
I'm searching for the perfect hit
sh** does it exist?
Ayo f** this sh**, roll me up something
[OUTRO]