[Intro Sample]
Kid 1: If we were lying I don't think we would come up with such good lies
Kid 2: If this isn't true, I mean, you can do anything you want with me, but it's true
Kid 1: They said that if we told that the Devil would come and k** our parents, and he said that we wouldn't live to be the age nine
Kid 2: Molested me
Adult: What does that mean, what does "molested" mean?
Kid 2: Touching in places we don't want, and then they would like threaten us like, "oh you don't say a word or else we're gonna come into your house and k** everybody, except for you and we're gonna send you to the devil, and everything. And they would scare us really much."
[Verse 1: Drtty Pharms]
Beta Boys
There were months where I couldn't f** without crying
Sometime I wonder why I keep trying It ain't safe out there so I stay hiding
My mind's so anxious ain't compliant
No matter how I try to take my a** back I can't get f**ed without a flash back
Fear and desire controlling my mind and I'm wired with pain in my a** crack
Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad person f** an underage girl and watch my problems worsen
Now I lay in bed with my feelings hurting me and bae cuddling still I feel desertion
Perversions have made me alone all these n***as saying I belong in a hole
With no way to get out saying I should lose hope they just want me in prison dropping the soap
Visions of dope got me tying the rope but I'm trying to cope with the b**hes I broke
Longing for something that isn't so transient family f**ed lost my mom as an adolescent
b**hes undressing I be confessing my sins to them hoping for blessings
Stressing about the consequences I learned that I had herpies the last time I was tested
Still I'm f**ing all these b**hes I wish I was different I wish my ex wasn't so distant
Still got a hand in every girl that I fistted and I still got mad love for the people I'm missing
[Chorus: Ziggy Black]
Got me weak, got me weak
All the time in a dark I wasted
I'm so weak I'm so weak
All the pain I refuse to face it
Look at me look at me
Already lost in the clouds I'm faded
This is real this is real
I already lost my mind it's too late
I already lost my mind it's too late
[Verse 2: The Sapien]
Sitting in my room listening to DOOM
I can' think my mind my mind's blocked by these f**ing goons
Wishing I can die very soon but in reality I'm looking for something new
Got a text from my old girl nothing new she said I got her a** stuck like some f**ing glue
Some dumb similes in the rap sh** I talk about weed on the track I can't f**ing choose
But back to these b**hes they talking but I never listen I'm always so distant
That's why I'm so alone all the time and these cat in the sea but I'm just fishing and I just dismiss it
I really don't give a f** since my mom left the earth I've been giving up
Got me waiting for d**h like a sitting duck all of these problems I can't solve this sh**'s enough
Don't pity him he's been taught all these lessons but still he's been stressing
Don't help that this n***as a city kid cause he want's smith and weston to f** up his blessings
Man, got a dime of the kush young moses with a fire crotch diving in the burning bush
Standing on the edge of a cliff can't do it by myself all I need's a f**ing push
n***a why you wanna die so bad? cause I'm tired of living with my dad
And he don't wanna see his son so sad over sh** I could have prevented still dumb as f**
Guess I'll never come to my senses
[Chorus: Ziggy Black]
Got me weak, got me weak
All the time in a dark I wasted
I'm so weak I'm so weak
All the pain I refuse to face it
Look at me look at me
Already lost in the clouds I'm faded
This is real this is real
I already lost my mind it's too late
I already lost my mind it's too late
[Outro]
Man it's so hard
Man it's so hard, it's so hard, it's so hard
Ohhhh