When I was a child, I had a dream,
a goal that I thought of as I was skipping stones across the stream.
I said to God, "if you make this come true I will be forever in your debt.
I just want this dream, that's all I want to get."
I told everybody that I knew and they said that it couldn't be done.
I replied, "oh yes it can - with the help of God and his son!"
For the next years, I waited for God's call to go,
I shouted, I called, but all I heard was my own echo.
There seemed to be voice, there seemed to be something there,
although all I heard was the negative people that got in my hair.
Later, I learned of atheism, theories, and science; I went to university,
where on one fateful day, I simply chose a life of mediocrity.
My professor handed me a supposedly wonderful book,
I opened it up, the first page was the one at which I did first look.
"Evolution is here. God is dead."
- a chapter title to which I just shook my head.
I realized then and there that my entire life had been one, big lie,
my dreams, hopes, and aspirations did, right there, die.
All of a sudden, life had a new meaning to me,
who needs morals, values, or why should one even marry?
Living was simply just about paying my bills,
getting drunk, using d**, and having a few other thrills.
I moved in with my girlfriend to a place by the dock;
we had two children - of course, out of wedlock.
We raised our children as atheists, we taught them to fight;
we told them to use this knowledge against the religious right.
Eventually, many people asked us why our teenagers used d**,
the only way I could answer these questions was with simple shoulder shrugs.
Fast forward 40 years to when I was lying alone on my d**h bed;
upon learning of my illness, "who cares?" was all that my family said.
All of a sudden, I heard a knock at my heart's door,
I opened it up gingerly and, when I saw who it was, I fell to the floor.
"Jesus!" I cried. "You're alive! Where have you been?"
"My child, " he replied, "I was here your entire life. You just wouldn't let me in.
Thinking I was dead was just a notion that you put in your brain;
you never gave me a chance, you never let me explain.
You took the Big Bang Theory and evolution as being facts,
when, in reality, they were nothing but clever acts.
You let all the nay-sayers, the atheists, and the negativity cloud your head,
you shouted, yelled, and when you didn't hear me, you concluded that I was dead.
In all that commotion, my voice was there telling you to 'go',
but you didn't hear it, all you could hear was the word 'no'."
Afterwards, I wept and I told him how I didn't deserve God's compa**ion or love,
my soul wasn't clean at all, it wasn't white like the color of a dove.
And then I saw a huge, loving smile come upon Jesus' face,
he said to me, "obviously, my child, you haven't heard of God's Grace."
"I'll give you a few more years of life; in the end, I want you to be a part of God's winning team.
It's never too late. Go follow OUR dream."