[Verse 1]
I remember when my brain was filled with darkness
Before I figured out, where my heart is
I did some stupid sh**, I'm not the smartest
People got hurt, and that was the hardest
But I'm just doing my part it's, not beautiful, but it's me
And if you got a problem with that, then diss me
I am listening, to everything that you say
Yea, it used to get to my head, but not today
I got this diamond, and I hold it tightly
I know who my friends are, they stand right by me
They're not hiding, they're not being slimy
They're talking to me, and not behind me
Fake friends? (fake friends) I ain't got time G
I only hang with people, who actually likes my rhyming
It's not a small part of me, it's my whole life it
Will be my love, until I find a wifey, but
[Hook x2]
If I could, then I would take it back
If I could, then I would just quit rap
If I could, then I would make a sick track
But I can't, cause this is where I'm at
[Verse 2]
I fall in love, yea it happens often
But's it's rarely something that I feed, and get lost in
Cause it's always one-side, it's exhausting
So, I burry it deep down, like a coffin
But then you came around, and gave me something
That made me start to believe, in real loving
Cause we're like a match, that ain't no-one touching
And I'm not talking about s**, I don't want f**ing
We started talking, because of music
Then we became friends, felt like we were fusing
We joked about love, but I think it was abusive
Cause now that it's real, we don't know what we're doing
I put the cards on the table, and then you did
But then you took ‘em back, now I feel stupid
I don't blame you, can't force your love
But now I don't know what to do, with this crush, it's tough, because
[Hook x2]
If I could, then I would make you love
If I could, then I would give you trust
If I could, then I'd believe in us
But I can't, cause that would be a bluff
[Verse 3]
I got this thing with my family, and my dad
That is making me both angry, and sad
Cause now I see it from both sides, oh why?
Do I feel like I have to choose - go left, or go right?
I love them all, but they don't like each other
Or maybe they do, but they don't act like brothers
When they write each other, there's venom in the words
So I feel like my whole family tree, is doing a purge, it hurts
[Hook x2]
If I could, then I would make them forget
If I could, then I'd delete what was said
If I could, then I would make sure that they met
But I can't, they're not ready yet