Verse 1:
Trying to keep my head straight
Shoulders stronger than they have to be
Need rest from all that’s happening
And I’m not alone
Know there no shortage
Feeling short changed
Like a quarter
Of a century pressing down like bu*tons
These ghosts keep haunting me
Been snacking with my closet crew
Hollow fools not much that they offer me
Sipping heavy cafffiene
I've been taking Xannies with my herbal tea
That's a war inside my brain
And I don’t see no stop in me
But I don’t need a reason
To evict this hoe inside me
I call him my anxiеty
I know he trying everything
Just to sеt me free
Can’t hate someone trying
Everything he can to let me be
All I do is wanna be
When I should find some peace
In reflected things
2020 vision was a hella thing
Sticking to my contacts
Content with all I need to see
Things that I don’t need to need
Verse 2:
Dreamville. Is that a thing still?
Some nights, some dreams
Keep me on the wheel
I let go, I would rather swerve
Built some kind of ego
I could never serve
I'm much lower than my best
Amalgamation of the word, on God!
I'm just trying
Attempting to just be alive
We live life stuck under so much scrutiny
Got a couple screws loose
I could never pass for eternity
Thank God, your thoughts
Hold weight lighter
Than the smallest damn mustard seed
You done ever seen
And who’s ever seen a mustard seed?
I play backdrop, sand on the boot
Of avengers' sized muster scene
Over trying to strut the screen
I do me now
Keep my heart pumping till its last beat
I used to hope I’d die on beat
I don’t hope anymore
Hold your breath too much
And it's hard to breathe
I'm just waiting confidently