[Hook] So cold is being lonely Behold the feeling lonely The living part is done The dying has begun [Verse 1] Finished my laundry yesterday morning Still scattered on the floor unfolded I think about pickin' on my clothes up But I don't feel like bendin' over to fold 'em It seems pointless I've worn the same clothes for the past four days And I don't wanna change And I don't wanna bathe I'm like a kid again A little kid again I don't plan on leavin' my apartment There's nothing out there, better off locked in Alone, phones unplugged Ignoring calls even though no one does Clothes untouched The carpet of laundry under my socked feet As I tiptoe to my mattress To seek refuge underneath my blankets [Hook] [Verse 2] Water leaps from a faucet The neighbors' dog keeps barking Cars keep honking Stick my fingers to my ears, tryna block them But it's no use I'm useless I'm sick of being pushed on these mood swings I need music Put on Rufus
Oh, what a lovely headline - "Life is beautiful" But I've yet to find it And I'm in no rush like Lifeson My pill bottle keeps getting lighter And my mind's on everything inside it They prescribe it, knowing it takes my mind off Whatever my mind's on That's running my life but The more it works, the more I take Jump from one obsession to another til I break [Hook] [Verse 3] All I do is sleep and think Think about trying to fall asleep again Dream about things I can be when I wake Wake up and think I'm too deep to change I hold my piss till it burns I hold my sh** till it gives My stomach growls like a lion But I've lost the desire to quiet it Body odor fills my apartment Pull up my blankets, blocking my nostrils They pound on my door, tryna get in my apartment Wondering if I'm alive in it And I wonder it myself I might as well stay thinking in my cell I've lost touch and I've never felt better Like a kid again A little kid again