[Hook]
So cold is being lonely
Behold the feeling lonely
The living part is done
The dying has begun
[Verse 1]
Finished my laundry yesterday morning
Still scattered on the floor unfolded
I think about pickin' on my clothes up
But I don't feel like bendin' over to fold 'em
It seems pointless
I've worn the same clothes for the past four days
And I don't wanna change
And I don't wanna bathe
I'm like a kid again
A little kid again
I don't plan on leavin' my apartment
There's nothing out there, better off locked in
Alone, phones unplugged
Ignoring calls even though no one does
Clothes untouched
The carpet of laundry under my socked feet
As I tiptoe to my mattress
To seek refuge underneath my blankets
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
Water leaps from a faucet
The neighbors' dog keeps barking
Cars keep honking
Stick my fingers to my ears, tryna block them
But it's no use
I'm useless
I'm sick of being pushed on these mood swings
I need music
Put on Rufus
Oh, what a lovely headline - "Life is beautiful"
But I've yet to find it
And I'm in no rush like Lifeson
My pill bottle keeps getting lighter
And my mind's on everything inside it
They prescribe it, knowing it takes my mind off
Whatever my mind's on
That's running my life but
The more it works, the more I take
Jump from one obsession to another til I break
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
All I do is sleep and think
Think about trying to fall asleep again
Dream about things I can be when I wake
Wake up and think I'm too deep to change
I hold my piss till it burns
I hold my sh** till it gives
My stomach growls like a lion
But I've lost the desire to quiet it
Body odor fills my apartment
Pull up my blankets, blocking my nostrils
They pound on my door, tryna get in my apartment
Wondering if I'm alive in it
And I wonder it myself
I might as well stay thinking in my cell
I've lost touch and I've never felt better
Like a kid again
A little kid again