[Verse 1: CurlE]
Wonder why I'm here
Fighting through them tears
These written rhymes realize blue skies near
For a moment, lose grasp, never do I hold it
The clouds roll back like waves crash from the ocean
And I'm hoping, the bullsh** I deal with will balance out
To leave me with a cheek to cheek grin stating that I'm happy now
I ain't happy now I'm dealing with the stress
Of fiending to be the best
Best believe me I'm bringing the best
Every single thing I spit is a little piece of me I give
I guess it's just make believe to believe life ain't sh**
With the heartache and the sadness
Breaking off the mask when
It looks worth the risk but the f**ing odds are stacked against it
You pick up your mask
Build up your walls
Never looking back
People f** em all
I'm coming off with a lack of apathy
It has to be like that only gaf about me till I get my life back
Get my mind back
Or get that time that
I wasted waiting and chasing trying to get your eyes back
Time lapse but it's all the same sh**
Girls with different names but the pain's the same, I admit
So I drink another fifth, I'm numb to the pain
I can feel you on my lips, so now I'm chugging the thing
Drunken defeat..
I wonder when the f** d**h's finally coming for me
[Hook: CurlE]
This is my life in the script of the song
If I ever f**ing die this is my suicide note
Take a look at the sky, it stays as grey as they come
Take a look at my life, this is my suicide note
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