Coming from the city of the living pen
The kids wanna rap but the rappers wanna be kids again
Only 22 so my life was at a bitter end, bit'a stress gems
What you waiting for bill it then?
Feeling never rested as the beast breathes
Watching lying politicians on the TV
Blunt smoke got a cracker munching on these sweeties
Acting like my dad never got his diabetes
And sorry dad but money rarely see's me
But people want to greet me and ask me for my CD
It's a freebie but dad they really need me
Appreciation for my art means more to me than greed see...
Alot of girls want to see me dead
But almost double that want to sleep in my bed
Love turned to lust
Lust turned to f**
Do I f** her cos I love her
Or Do I love her cos we f**?
Damn, that's an issue that I rarely touch
Maybe I hate that I love her cos she ain't there as much
It felt like a story, maybe I didn't care enough
But when I looked close I could always see that fairy dust
But listen to these lyrics, cos I ain't gonna tell 'em twice
Underground rapper, my evolution won't be televised
Looking up thinking I won't ever reach the heaven skies
Cos I stare at my girl but all I see's my ex's eyes
But wait, let me emphasize, if you only think you got wings
You ain't meant to fly
People act pally but their Facebook is telling lies
Where was you when I was depressed? you ain't no friend of mine
We go out how we lived when our life is done
I learnt that from watching smokers and Ryan Dunn
Run towards the sun cos my time is just declining bruv'
Feeling like Will Sallaces mum when her time was up
Recurring dreams of if my daughter lived
Can't tell you how many times I've thought of it
I tell you now the worst thing about abortion is
After it she told me I was the one who was forcing it
So I'm high up with new writtens
I'm high by the time that you listen
I'm high up in the booth spitting'
Is that the weed or the music?
Fly to a new distance, I'm crying but who isn't?
I'm writing with new scriptures, I'm flying with new vision
Damn, I only tell you how it is
So it's only right I only mention how I live
My rooms messed up just like my intentions for a b**h
Wow that's so much deeper than you think it is
Exhale through the same pen that his ink is in
Sober mind now so the truth is slowly sinking in
That I can't really cope unless I've had a flipping drink
So back at JD, I'm having day dreams
Thinking of the past when I could have had a baby..
I told my ex that it hadn't really phased me
But I wish that I could go back
Lord take me
Wishful thinking got you thinking that I'm rapping weird
So speak of the devil and he shall appear
They tell me be thankful they tell me show the man in here
But really and truly I'm just thankful to be standing here