This can't be
It hurts too much to breathe
It surpa**es anything that I could ever dream (this nightmare)
Wishing it were, a dream, a nightmare
An intangible mind
An altered reality from which to awake
But the pinches hurt too much
And the bodies are cold to the touch
This can't be, but it is
Every song that is sung
Every chord that is played contains a fraction of you within it
I would give anything for one last something;
The sound of your laugh, a smile, a hug
A shared moment belonging to just the two of us
Even Judas got one last kiss
It surpa**es anything that I could ever dream
This nightmare, this terror
This reaching, grasping, wishing
For these hands that will never again be touched
These arms that will never again be held
These dreams that will never watch unfold
And all that's left are the nooses that we tied with the times we never took
This pain is more than anything I could have ever imagined
This can't be, but it is
And I just wish you could know...
All these things that I never found the ways to say
These words that still choke me every day
All the ways that you made me everything I am
All the ways that you are still everything I could ever hope to have
And everything that I could ever hope to be
And after everything...
All of these sleepless nights
These millions of words, thoughts, and tears
Still more than anything...I love you
And I miss you
I will never forget any of what you gave us in the time that you were here