Twenty Two years I'm starting to see it
This world is gone bring you nothing but bereavement
Sorrow and sadness for four out of five
Took the four four and aimed at my eye
Four out of five years my last was a struggle
Miss my best friend so I'm causing this trouble
Pulling my mind up up out of the rubble
Needed a hero to keep from the stumbles
Through blood sweat and tears I fought to get fans
Trying to take something that i could demand
Stuck at the bottom for so long I'd fight
Became a man first and then I saw the light
Thinking of different ways that I could reach you
Without causing damage you're gla** I can see through you
All of the things that we do now are evil
But I'm necessary and your'e not my equal
You causing me problems
I'm bringing you drama
Toting that deuce for my pops and my momma
My brother stay watching don't do as I do
Because I do this for me and I do this for you
So the deuce that I carry
Is making me scary
Do not push the kid because then things will get hairy
No ifs and no maybes
I'm k**ing it lately
Least in my mind i don't think that I'm crazy
WHAT!
Should I calm down
I been savvy for a minute I'm a bomb now
I been waiting to k** waiting to give my all
But I'm thrown to the side by you
But of all of the people who I thought would show me the support
Would be my fam but alas they ignoring your boy
Unless I get 10k views on the tube
So I'm cutting yall off don't act all bruised
Now I'm causing all this damage and you say I spit heat
Trying to get me on your tracks guess what I ain't free
You left me to the side and put them over me
But whenever you needed help I was the first who would speak
Now you feeling like I owe you
Cuz i know you
Put me on your tracks and I'll trash your tape
Spitting this s**ual a**ault so a verse gets raped
Bars nine to five straight through don't get no breaks
Done being patient while you hating
Imma take what's mine
Suffered five years of this now I thinks it's time
For the Nephilim to rise and begin his shine
Forget everything you heard Imma jump this line
Pushing all whose in front of me
Don't care if you called next
Taking controllers out of hands and I'm breaking your pads
"ContakZ calm down!"
Nah fella I'm mad
Should've known this would happen now I actually snap
Been trying to make my name known
But they put me on hush
Trying to tell me I s**
And I had felt this too much
It had me stuck in a rut
While other rappers out here get a chance to bust
Like it's public transportation while they acting all sus
Wearing blouses while their mouth is spouting gibberish huh
Now it's making sense what Eminem would say
Except put me in the place where they forgot about Dre
Underestimated by those in the same position
They tripping thinking that I'm weak I just may start dissing
Blurring the vision of my enemies when I start shining K
It's in my DNA to double up one time pray
You see daylight or like Math catch hands
I'm a disaster with a mic my mobs Flowey and Sans
I ain't worried about a thing because they ain't gonna try and fight me
No wonder my peers hate me they must wanna be like me
I see them look and staring point and laugh when I show
But be nodding they while they in the front row
Telling me that I'm dope
And you want a free collab from me
But if I were to ask you would Lebron and try to charge me
Caught them slipping
I'm whipping working it O.T
I don't give two squirts whatever they tried to show me
Abolishing careers destroying dreams while I'm coasting
Figure me out or get rolled on make a choice b
Make a choice
I finally feel like I'm starting to make noise
But even close friends telling me that I should quit
But the fact of the matter is this is all I am
I have no other talent rappings all that I got
I don't want to be stuck working some mindless job
Mindless Jah send help still stuck in a rut
Dear Lord help your son because it's destroying your boy
I don't want to go back to not liking who I was
And if they answer lies in Heaven then I still look up
Keeping my head held high taking hits on the chin
Trying to stay a saint in a world filled with Sin
Dear God, I know that you can hear me
I know a part of you feels the pain that I am feeling
Got me sitting here reeling
In the fetal position kneeling
With eyes watery tearing
Wishing that you would hear me
The deuce is out and I'm aiming
The mirror a haunted painting
It's ever morphing and changing
To what I fear it's the same thing
That I am still in the picture surrounded by all of my failures
Five years later and i still can't hear you
Twenty Two now I feel you
Working inside of my head
Listen to what you yell
Listen not what they tell
Continue to go beyond
Go and get your shine
Your friend she's doing just fine
She's watching from up above
She told you never give up
She sees you kicking your rhymes
Through all the dirt and the grime
You'll meet her at the finish line
Nephilim it's time
Now rise you got a job to finish and then you're mine
I've chosen my path (go on)
The doubts in my fam (gone)
They favors they ask (gone)
Those who said I can't (gone)
I'm living and you were wrong
And nobody here stopping him
Everybody watching him
Steady trying to copy him
A god no flopping him
Forget an introduction
Welcome yall to the Nephilim
Twenty Two Years now and nobody truly stopping him
Nephilim
Now that that actually hurt my lungs
But it's whatever
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