[Verse 1]
I wake up stuck inside a cold war
With no aid
I need a medic for the pain
Who's this a**hole
With no name?
All alone in this world
Left to choke on shame
I know i've f**ed up in the past
I think about it everyday
Wear it like the freshest cast
Can't take it off, guess nothing changed
Can't bring her back
She's gone away
She wears a mask
To hide from me
There's times she'll ask me
How I've been
But I can't see her face
To directly say
I'm sorry
For the things I've done
I look back at what was just for fun
I can see how it hurts and can't be numbed
And shows its scars to everyone
[Hook]
With hearts as cold as winter nights
This war goes on inside my mind
Abandonment laced with your spite
Asphyxiates and holds the knife
I wake up screaming, feeling fright
From watching fangs dig deep inside
My skin, you've come to s** my life
From me and leave me empty twice
The worst is yet to come and so
I hear your footsteps deep below
The faintest sound it's coming slow
As quiet as the falling snow
Approaching closer, I feel woe
And loss of any hanging hope
For when we're standing toe-to-toe
I'll break down once again, I know
[Verse 2]
This b**h found a way to s** me in
And press against me skin to skin
I see her shape a twisted grin
And watch as she strikes me down again
This pain that I display
Just always seems to find a way
To haunt me constantly and slay
All motivation that I may
Show possession on
Strategize and play me like a pawn
Leave me stuck drinking back memories
That are on my mind from dusk til dawn
Maybe some day i can sit her down
And let her know of every song she's on
I doubt it, I've lost count and
She'd care less to see me drowning
Let alone to know she's normally
The topic of my pouting
When i'm shouting to the skies
And I get no reply, I wonder why
I continue this sh**, to even try
So lonely i could cry
Or even die, suicide
I guess there's no more f**ing time
And I'd hate to paraphrase
But hey, "can we go back to days
When we didn't have to behave
When we could love instead of hate"
I sense there's something in the wind
Something I can never win
A love that I can never hold
And keep from pain
Could I just smile once again?
[Hook 2x]