[Verse 1]
3am, and I ain't even started this
Somebody tell me where this evening's after party is
I need somewhere new to use, where I can be ejected from
Some new people with new toes for stepping on
But for now, I'm doing shots until the bar is dry
The game is on, I top the leaderboard because I started high
I'm going in, I'm going in until I pa** out
I'm down to f** up my life - I might as well start now
So where's that girl from work, who's single cos' she's been hurt?
I'm tryna use her self esteem to see what's underneath her shirt
She told me "do what people our age are doing"
So I'm acting like the next man, now everybody screwin'
They say it don't suit me - please, just shoot me
For wanting something easy, something raw, something sushi
I'm making plans I never plan on seeing through
Ain't that me through and through? Weren't that me when it was me and you?
[Verse 2]
Nasty manipulator, chronic pisstaker
Damaging embarra**ment who vomits on his fifth Jaeger
I lost my mind in a nightclub bathroom
And haven't learned a lesson since I left my last cla**room
I'm making scenes, acting up in all directions
Missing my marks like rhetorical questions
Cos' it's hard to know if anybody really gives a damn
When all they've ever got me is boxes of Citalopram
And I ain't take em' cos' they f** up my high
And I ain't talking cos' you'll f** up my high
So let's go get lost in house share
Call it on, phone it in and tell em' that we're downstairs
If that phone's off then pa** me another bottle
Don't ask me when I'll be stopping, it's hard to be this dishonest
I'm just tryna go strong, go for broke til' I stop
Like the time I was so gone, I did coke with my boss
Distorted debauchery - minus the extravagance
Extorting me for more, I'm trying not to but she's adamant
With girls who only stay until the mirrors wiped clean
I've been told it's too far and I'm scared that it might be
It's likely. It's frightening. Na, they're just saying that to spite me
I feel like being myself might break me
Trust me it's much easier if you hate me