Y'all don't understand me
All you hand me is a dime and maybe some candy
Plan a didn't work out so I went to plan b;
Stole money from a single mom, man I'm such a pansy
I can't even pay for a family
This rage got me into a frenzy
I keep goin in circles... I'm dizzy
You don't understand what it's like to live in poverty
Wish I could win the lottery
You know what bothers me? Is how my father left me
I have no house but got kids yet I'm still fatherly;
Through it all my family is my biggest commodity
Daily, the scholarly pa** and scoff at me
The way the struggling are treated is a monstrosity; they are for some reason a mockery
I'm about to run up on someone's property and commit a robbery;
These thoughts that cross my mind are an atrocity
It's even got to the point where I judge my sk**s like "that was sloppy"
I work my a** off;
No rappers can top me but my zero income stops me
I've got kids to feed, right now they are walkin around the park consuming bird seeds
I asked a man for food and he kneed me
He told me to find work
But I can't even get a job as store clerk
No one hires an ex-jail bird
I'm about to go berserk
My children expect me to provide but my hands are tied
Me and my girls curl up at night;
While they rest I fall asleep crying
Man, I swear on the inside it feels I'm dying
It's even come to it, when I see them I go into hiding
It's like my efforts always fall short
Not once has the ball landed in my court
It's the saddest thing but I wish she would had abort
My kids don't deserve to live like dirt
Not even able to afford them a clean shirt
Day to day is just plain hurt, it irks me because they see me struggle
When they say they hungry I burst like a bubble
I take it out on my girls like it's their fault
But how are they to blame if I ain't got money in the vault?
The thing that nerves me is when I think I'll stay this way until I'm buried
Or when people pull up on the curb and start spewing sh**, it perturbs me
It disturbs me when my girls are running around the park telling me to hurry
Like how can you be so positive with so little, it beats me
Pa**ers have the guts to say why I chose to be poor
Like I want to ask the same person each day for more
Knocking on people's doors
Or even worse when I have to go around stealin out a young woman's purse
I wish sh** would change but it just recurse
God have mercy
I ain't perfect
But I swear I'll make your effort worth it. It's time to find that fighter in me and unearth it
Because I promised my girls the world
And I'd be perplexed if I didn't follow through with it
So, world watch your back here I come
I won't succumb to these scum
I will overcome and overrun these thoughts that prevented me to move forward
Toward these goals that I have set
Let my little angels watch over me
They will carry me to victory, away from our misery
To all you who spat me on me, watch me climb this mountain
Because I promise you I will be above all of you