Another day another person leaves before i say goodbye
Some days i feel alive and some i sit around and wait to die
Sipping getting lifted 'til i'm twisted like a cable tie
You say it's addiction, this my way of getting stabilized
Faded from the haters my problems were all created by
The moment you can't do 'em a favor is when they vaporize
That's why i be solo and my faith is all i stay beside
And way before a quarantine i been the type to stay inside
It's major vibes of a ni**a that's struggling to find himself
Afraid they all gon' notice when i buckle like designer belts
Conversations with my momma and the marijuana help
But nothing take the pain away i just know how to hide it well
I'm riding well over the limit but i say "fu*k the law"
Felt the same way when that officer broke my brother jaw
Riding with that type of stick that doesn't have a clutch involved
Before they lock me up i'll load it up and let a dozen off
I'm bleeding for my freedom i can't even leave it up to y'all
Never felt a low blow, i'm easily above it all
And i just let the phone keep ringing when the struggle call
Cause i can't let another motherfu*ker in my budget dawg
And ever since i rode 'round hoopty
Friend ain't a term that i would throw around loosely
Very few people i would hold down truly
Everybody ghost, now my whole town spooky
fu*k...
It's been a minute since i've spoken this clear
I easily have cried over an ocean of tears
When i think about the fact the you supposed to be here
And how this supposed to be both our careers
It's crazy...how much changed for us over the years
Every time i do a show i still hope you appear
Right in the back of the crowd
Not even rapping aloud
Just cracking a half a smile to let me know that you care
One thing that i know that i got right about life
Is everything must come to an end
And betrayal by a lover is a hurt that's like no other
But it's worse to be deserted by a friend
'cause i done lost a lot of hoes
And i done lost a lot of homies
I be swapping out the hoes
But ain't forgot about the homies
You my dawg then you my dawg
If you a thottie, you ain't know me
When i can't link with the squad it's when it's obvious i'm lonely
Got nobody sitting shotty
I been riding by my doley
I been scheming for that cream and blocking demons like a goalie
She like photos
She like shopping
Shorty think that she adobe
I like smoking while i'm popping every bean my ni**a throw me
But i'm focused 'cause i'm not gon' still be dreaming when i'm forty
I know i'ma reach the top before i see my ni**a kobe
Lately i've been warming up but that don't mean i'm getting cozy
If you ever heard me speak it then i freed it or i wrote it ni**a