I never meant to impose.
I swear this is the last time I will.
Please go pay respects to the man I never was.
The man you'll never be.
Please burn don't bury my body and forget why you cared.
Never worth your grieving.
Never worth a bead of sweat.
All I've earned is a distant surrender.
Free from your humble affection.
I'll seek out a shelter, and lie there in wait.
Take cold take my body, the air, the breath from my throat.
My rational thought is that I'll burden you
if I stick around to say goodbye.
So I'll take advantage of fear
with every brave impulse I own
to get as far away from everyone I can.
Because when it ends don't dare to think you owe me a thing.
Here's to hoping you're happy.
Here's to hoping you've triumphed.
Here's hoping I'm more than just sorrow to bitter your nights.
Here's hoping my flesh becomes empty cold steel, without a lament.
Here's to hoping you feel nothing at all.