[Hook (Adaliah)]:
MY MISTAKES
MY fu*kING MISTAKES
MY MISTAKES
MY fu*kING MISTAKES
[Verse]:
I wanted to leave this world since the age of nine
Seventeen years old, and my life is pa**ing me by
Everyone has dates and everyone has friends
Except for me, I can no longer pretend
Fake smiles aren't curing the pain inside
sh** still cuts deep even with healing time
I've always been alone and I've always been a mess
Might as well tattoo "suicide" on my chest
Flaggin' on my friends so I can stay inside
But what I do all day is let my brain process lies
I'm running from life with no direction or time
Just get me out of here and I'll be fine
I feel like a room without doors or windows
Trapped inside myself without an entrance
The only music I make is inside my head
The only beats I make is on the wall behind my bed
[Hook]:
MY MISTAKES
MY fu*kING MISTAKES
[Verse]:
Now It's like I gotta stay high all the time
To escape the pressure and to pause on life
Sometimes I wish I could just rewind
So I could end up doing her alright
I'm steady reppin' those self-inflicted wounds
Scars on my heart and on my skin too
All it took was a simple "I love you"
Now my heart don't beat to the sound of the tune
I see all my flaws all day, every day, I'm shamed
I'm a body without a soul and a kid without a name
There's a lot I don't have including composure
All I'll ever be is an American pushover
Sometimes I wish my life was like NBK
A Natural Born k**er on the streets every day
Except the only thing I'm k**ing is myself
Suicidal breakdown 'cuz I'm feelin' myself