Eternal Alienating, i will never be free. I've been locking myself inside. all this time, searching for something that's right outside my door. but when i hear your name i just wish it all away. I'm not looking but i still see, I'm not listening but i still hear. i feel even though you're not here. forever i fear you, fear me. i don't want to live forever. everyday i see your face, lying awake. i can feel your embrace crush me. i can't trust me, trust you. see me point my hatred at you. every time i hear your name, when i hear your name i just wish it all away