[Intro}
I gotta tell you what I'm ashamed of
It's tearing at me. I want to wake up
I'm terrified that you'll want to break up
How could I blame you?
[Verse 1]
I've hoped and prayed over this for sometime now that you gonna understand
I've tried to cope and no joke I can't do it on my own I'm only human
I'm choosing right now to grab this pressure that's building up in me
Gonna put this b**h inside of my fist and say you not gonna f** with me
My knees are buckling. So much much pain been enough to scream
Been difficult and tough to bring myself to admit that I gotta come clean
I've done some things, dumb things, almost as bad I've thought some things
Don't wanna be cold but I got that chill like the chill autumn brings
You thought that I brought to the table marriage not a coffee ring
You thought that I got what's stable, but I got a brain the size of a whole in a bagel
Or one little dot on top of a lego. Or one little raindrop
So dumb that I made my brain pop out of my head like an edamame bean. Know what I mean?
I eat my brain. I beat the pain. I don't wanna go anywhere right now
Defeat the flame and I'm to blame. It's burning down this plane
I'm learning how to change. I'm learning how to gain momentum. I will never be the same
[Pre Chorus)
Free the picture from the
Free the picture from the
Free the picture from the frame
I'm to blame
Free the picture from the
Free the picture from the
Free the picture from the
I'm the one who changed
[Chorus}
I gotta tell you what I'm ashamed of
It's tearing at me. I want to wake up
I'm terrified that you'll want to break up
How could I blame you?
[Verse 2]
I'm trapped inside of a hole that I dug. I covered it up with a rug
I'm covered in mud. Everything taste like bugs and blood when you hurt someone you love
Hidden away within myself. I don't wanna be some frightened b**h
I don't wanna be some f**ing coward sit here try to fight this sh**
The path I paved though I swear was not meant to be laid
It led me into a maze and then into a grave
But I don't need to be saved. I'm the one that betrayed
The woman that I made worry about how I behaved
I better get a machete and slay the evil I created
I'll never be welcome back in our home if I vacate it
I've incinerated everything though it's all demolished
I'll never do it again, I promise. I know how far the fall is
Bone crushing. Broken inside because of me
So disgusting. I was nothing but a D
I double S A P O I N T M E N T
She never knew to what degree. I never gave her honesty
[Pre Hook]
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
So many days I thought I'm days with praying. Why bother with it?
I figure that life was just never meant to be all terrific
And the more you drink the more you start to think you hate yourself
You can't replace yourself. You better embrace yourself
But I felt so anxious and empty there's nothing meant for me
There's nothing meant to be. No reason to remember me
I'd rather be a centipede than a shell of a man
Who never picked his life up when it fell from his hands
But I was too afraid to fall apart to keep it built
And even more afraid to die under a heap of guilt
Dishonesty will hit you like a million paper cuts
Inside of my body I bet that I looked like a zombie
Freed the picture from the frame and saw that I was rotting
Blood oozing out of my wounds there was no use in blotting
My stomach knotting. I'm nodding off and vomiting trash
I was the comet that crashed. All my promises smashed
[Outro]